[scooter62487]

You know somethings wrong when you wonder no longer get mad. When you get to the point that you no longer care, what do you do? Who do you turn to when the person you would run to is the one your running from? I believe one can choose to fall in and out of love whith whom they want and that love can conquer all. What do you do when fighting for love requires more energy and effort then you have in you. When you feel like your dying inside it just means that the next time you will be stronger. You will learn to guard your feelings more then usual, you won't get upset as easy and eventually you just won't care. What do you do when what matters most to you seems to be pulling you apart? Love is a funny thing. It can build you up or break you down what it does is up to fate. Whatever fate has in store doesn't make a difference. I promised to be there until the end and I'll keep on trying no matter what fate throws my way. I'm so tired inside and often I feel like I lost my way but then I look back at what I love and it makes me keep pushing on. I feel my heart turning cold. The sad part is by the time you realize what's going on my heart will be like a stone. It takes time to undo the pain we cause and words we say never leave. There always there in ones mind no matter what's going on at the time. I'll never leave your or betray you but I don't know how much longer I can fight alone. One day you'll see what your doing to me. The question is wether you will be willing to try to fix it once you know. Will you think it worth it to join my fight or will it be just like any other night? Oh well, theres nothing left to do but move on.

[GrownNsexiMo]

Originally Posted by scooter62487

You know somethings wrong when you wonder no longer get mad. When you get to the point that you no longer care, what do you do? Who do you turn to when the person you would run to is the one your running from? I believe one can choose to fall in and out of love whith whom they want and that love can conquer all. What do you do when fighting for love requires more energy and effort then you have in you. When you feel like your dying inside it just means that the next time you will be stronger. You will learn to guard your feelings more then usual, you won't get upset as easy and eventually you just won't care. What do you do when what matters most to you seems to be pulling you apart? Love is a funny thing. It can build you up or break you down what it does is up to fate. Whatever fate has in store doesn't make a difference. I promised to be there until the end and I'll keep on trying no matter what fate throws my way. I'm so tired inside and often I feel like I lost my way but then I look back at what I love and it makes me keep pushing on. I feel my heart turning cold. The sad part is by the time you realize what's going on my heart will be like a stone. It takes time to undo the pain we cause and words we say never leave. There always there in ones mind no matter what's going on at the time. I'll never leave your or betray you but I don't know how much longer I can fight alone. One day you'll see what your doing to me. The question is wether you will be willing to try to fix it once you know. Will you think it worth it to join my fight or will it be just like any other night? Oh well, theres nothing left to do but move on.

I mean if you really love this person from the bottom of your heart then talk to him and tell him ho u feel and if je still act the same way let him go then he'll realize how much he missed you... i mean love is a powerful thing so no matter how hard it is trying to let go its always for the best because at the end it shows if he really loved you or not believe me my situation is very similar to this

[Shangrala]

Originally Posted by scooter62487

You know somethings wrong when you wonder no longer get mad. When you get to the point that you no longer care, what do you do? Who do you turn to when the person you would run to is the one your running from? I believe one can choose to fall in and out of love whith whom they want and that love can conquer all. What do you do when fighting for love requires more energy and effort then you have in you. When you feel like your dying inside it just means that the next time you will be stronger. You will learn to guard your feelings more then usual, you won't get upset as easy and eventually you just won't care. What do you do when what matters most to you seems to be pulling you apart? Love is a funny thing. It can build you up or break you down what it does is up to fate. Whatever fate has in store doesn't make a difference. I promised to be there until the end and I'll keep on trying no matter what fate throws my way. I'm so tired inside and often I feel like I lost my way but then I look back at what I love and it makes me keep pushing on. I feel my heart turning cold. The sad part is by the time you realize what's going on my heart will be like a stone. It takes time to undo the pain we cause and words we say never leave. There always there in ones mind no matter what's going on at the time. I'll never leave your or betray you but I don't know how much longer I can fight alone. One day you'll see what your doing to me. The question is wether you will be willing to try to fix it once you know. Will you think it worth it to join my fight or will it be just like any other night? Oh well, theres nothing left to do but move on.

The sad thing about this kind of situation is, once you reach the point of realizing that you are, in fact, turning "cold", as you say, chances are you've entered the numb phase. And more times than not, once entering this point, it's much like the point of no return. VERY difficult to even want to try to mend what could have been mended sometime ago simply because you are exhausted....you've utilized every inner resource you had by carrying the burden alone toward attempting to fix what you both should have attended to.

I would think, the best you can do for yourself, then, is to strive onward for yourself. Learn from the value there is to be had from past and apply it to improvement of your present. Progression is the key. So long as the same mistake isn't repeated (too many times), then these experiences, however painful they may be, are not in vain.



Shangrala

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Really well put Shangrala...that numbness which starts in the mind and travels to the body isn't something that you can easily return from. It is a message initially of anger then proceeds to hurt and then moves onto "You can't hurt me if I don't care, so I won't care". But burning bridges is easy when one has mental illness, it is the rebuilding that takes the time and energy which many people do not have the stamina for,

Thanks for a good post Shangrala.

Good luck with this scooter,

Rhiannon

[scooter62487]

Originally Posted by GrownNsexiMo

I mean if you really love this person from the bottom of your heart then talk to him and tell him ho u feel and if je still act the same way let him go then he'll realize how much he missed you... i mean love is a powerful thing so no matter how hard it is trying to let go its always for the best because at the end it shows if he really loved you or not believe me my situation is very similar to this

I do really love him and I'm working on letting him go but even if he dont choose me I'll still be here. I made a commitment and I must stick to it.