[krisakira]

I'm not very close with my dad. But in some ways I am. Like we would play games together, thats all our relationship can really be at this point, since he was my abuser, and still believes he was right in all he did. But he is still my dad. I buy him Christmas presents/cards, birthday cards and father's day cards. And he and my mom get me christmas presents and birthday cards (even though my mom always signs my dad's name with hers, I can tell its her handwriting). This Father's Day, I made him a card myself using PhotoShop and worked pretty hard on it. Well i forgot to send it in time. So, to make up for it, I turned the card into a little video slideshow that, again, i worked very hard on. I e-mailed him the video on Saturday morning. I saw that he has opened the email by now. But it is Monday evening, and I still have no reply from him. Not even anything from my mom saying thanks. Or if they couldnt figure out how to play the video, I didnt even get an email asking how to play it. I feel disappointed. I even put "Love, Christie" on the card video, even though I felt hesitant, but he is my dad so I put it. Cause somewhere in the back of my mind, i wonder, that maybe he does love me too. But at this rate, that thought is fading farther back and i am losing grip of the bit of relationship i can still have with him. My mom tells me he loves me, but he never says it to me, except 1 time a few years ago, when my mom made him say it. It's his fault that we can only have a little bit of a relationship cause of the abuse. And now it's his fault that it's going down the tube no matter what I do.

So sorry this is happening, krisakira.