[peaceweb602]

I use to have a crush on a guy in high school who I was too shy to talk to or to be around with. I'm 26, been 8 years since we've seen each other. Lately I've been having memories of him. I'm so shy and vain around him. I'm not good enough or something? I keep fantasizing about myself to appear a certain way to him so he would accept me. Really, I don't even care. I have too much to focus on in reality to care about a stupid relationship between him and me. I don't want to think of him. It's over with, but sometimes I daydream about him. I think vain thoughts of myself to show off to him that I'm okay. He use to think I was really weird because I couldn't be myself around him. I don't know. How can I close this relationship. I don't have any physical contact with him, but he's on my mind. I think he is my twin soul. I don't want to think of him. I just want him to accept me and love me for who I am, but it's impossible to make someone feel that way. I just want to accept that he doesn't like me. I don't even know what I'm saying now! What I mean is that I just want to accept myself... I think that's what's bothering me. I don't accept myself because he doesn't like me. I need to find peace so I can deal with reality and make life beautiful again. Thanks for listening. Peace.

[Leed]

Hi ~ Is he REALLY that important that you care what he thinks? If someone cannot accept you the way you are, then that person is pretty shallow -- if your 'appearance' wasn't good enough for him then, it seems to me that he was pretty full of himself.

YOU have to realize that YOU are just as good as anyone else!! You shouldn't have to try to impress anyone -- just be yourself, and forget about what others think!! Not everyone is going to like us -- there are some who we just can't 'connect' with no matter what we do. It shouldn't matter that much what HE thinks -- afterall, is he anyone famous or THAT important? You're a good person -- you are just as good as he is. Try to move on and find someone who cares for you just as you are!!! God bless and take care of YOU. Hugs, Lee