[pringles13]

OK this is my story

She is a junior in high school, I am a freshman in college, we were together for 2 years.. =( since she was a freshman in high school and I was a junior. I admit I cheated and she knows that….but it happened in 2009 in 2010 and 11 I was faithful but there was a period this year..december to march…where I broke up with her..we still continued to have sex and be romantic, but she was extremely insecure and she said she wasn’t “happy”.

So were back together this summer and she finds out that I’m going to a college down south, I’m from up north… and well I could tel that really bothered her but I thought we could make it. Stupid me. Now, I have this friend that I knew over the internet for years, we were like brothers who never met….but come to find out she tellls me that she liked him for a year..and it just so happens that the same week I left for college in august, they both happen to be vacationing in florida….. and well they met up, no nothing happened…but after that she started telling me these feelings she had for him, and of course that asshole felt the same way about her……and well I thought nothing of it, but then about 2 weeks ago she broke up with me…I cried and I cried, she told me I was too far away(he lives far too…) and I was depressed…and then come too find out. A week later she calls me…saying that she had started dating him the day after we broke up and that he made her happy.. I cried and she embarrased me while we were on the phone she was video chatting with him, and this asshole keeps trying to be my friend I just want nothing to do with them..but I want her I FEEL that theres still a chance, or am I just blind?

So we were “friends” for a few days but I couldn’t take it, so 3 days ago I initiated the no contact rule….and she told me that she was gonna misss me and al that I told her I loved her as a girlfriend and I just can’t be her friend later that day she texts me saying she still has feelings for me but shes with him…she still loves me whatever I ignored it, and I was doing GREAT, focusing on school meeting people…and then…earlier today a strange number calls me, its her from the hospital back home, telling me that her gramma isnt doing so well…she then tells me that she needs her boyfriends number, I didn’t have it cuz I erased it, we ended up talking for a while, she tells me she isses me, she misses our friendship, but then she showed her jealous(She is a VERY jealous girl) saying oh I bet you had sex with another girl already, and the convo was going ok…and then she was saying in october I have a break off of school so im coming home for a week she says “I miss being in your arms we should hang out” and im like oh,..i miss you too…she was showing al these feelings and how she missed me..so just 3 days of no contact and look at the results…

But then…. Later on tonight I get a video chat call from a friend, I enter and its awkward, its my ex, her boyfriend and a few other guys, and my ex’s best friend was there and they were shitting on me and talking crap and whatever, and im like what the **** you werent saying this earlier!!! And after the chat, I get a call. Shes yelling at me saying what the hell why did ou do thhat now hes mad at me I told him how you we could still be together how could you do this.

And im thinking well what the hell you guys were shitting on me, and shes like “I ONLY CALLED YOU BECAUSE I WANTED HIS NUMBER BLAH BLAH” and me being the idiot I am the convo ended up going into a whole “why him over me thing” and then she started to tell me things like “I don’t want to lose him your not worth it im starting to love him he makes me happy” but I don’t get it they have been together a 2 weeks, they lives states away, just like me at college, whats the difference…

And then she was saying how she is over me and she doesn’t want to talk to me anymore…I don’t think that’s true…or did I drive her away????????……we were together 2 years theres no WAY all the feelings are gone. Then I just ended up like trying to convince her that shes not over me..yes stupid I know

So I called her back after she hung up, she didn’t answer, I called about 10 times she picks up and I say “im done don’t talk to me anymore” and I hang up.

I was doing fine these few days now im crying again….is there still a chance?? Should I try to hang out with her in october???? Should I just move on??I don’t get it..i have a test tomorrow and because of all these events I didn’t get to study, I really need to focus on school but damn these feelings, like I think there might still be hope..

Should I just move on? Continue no contact and see what happens? Is no contact worth it

Also most of these guys are on a forum website I go to and they always ask me to video chat and crap…and she might be there, she like stole all my friends it sucks. I have friends at home and im making friends at college but like my internet life is like reminding me of her, and she always gives me hope and then shuts me down

What do you guys think? Did I waste 2 years?

Move on? Wait till october? No contact? I hate this I need help..

[pringles13]

Anybody help please

[emptybee15]

For one, you kind of opened this can of worms by cheating on her from the get go. So, her being all confused and not knowing what to do should not be surprising to you. You have to just deal with what she wants because it's all your doing.
I would just move on because she probably won't get over that, being as though she's a jealous person and she's probably enjoying playing with YOUR feelings now as you did hers.

Just speaking from experience. It makes me feel great every time the guy that cheated on me calls and pours his heart out because I know HE knows that he messed up BADLY and it's been like 4 years and he still tries, LOL!

So, suck it up dear. You have to lie in this bed you've made.

[pringles13]

Alright thank you.