[DespondentDaisy]

I wish I read this ten years ago.(the article on the home page) I branched out a bit, but then after a bad, isolating relationship, I became friends again with a toxic shallow friend and lost touch with other more true friends and now I'm killing myself. 5 years or so after a bitter and crazy falling out with said friend, I feel so alone. I'm left not really knowing how to make new friends. GRanted, I've made one semi good friend who lives close by- but besides my family and my boyfriend and his friends, that's pretty much it. I couldn't even read the whole article, it just made me upset. I know these things take time- but now, out in the workd world, god, it'd be nice to have people to call up and chat with, or go to a movie or other event with. I'm tired of always being on my own, aside from the times I do things with my bf. ;( I have another friendly aquaintance, but I don't see her that often to have things progress past aquaintance level. Much like mostly everyone out there. I think I'm better than I sued to be, I used to be unemployed and completely isolated, plus smoking weed everyday and completely paranoid. I've improved quite a bit, but a lot of times I just get bitter and angry at myself for ending up like this. I'm afraid of my bf ever proposoing to me because I'll have no friends to invite to the wedding, let alone have any bridesmaids. I keep thinking of my best friend in highschool (long story there I won't get into)- we used to talk about our grandkids hanging out together. It kills me sometimes to think back on how promising my life looked just ten years ago. I kn ow it's not over or anything, I still have a ways to go. But I really miss having friends sometimes.

Hello, DespondentDaisy. Yes, good friends are treasures.