[MarcyCJ]

i know its coming
the tension has been building up for weeks.
it always starts with small problems: money, school, travel, work, visitors, etc.
i can feel the tension in the family rising.
don't get me wrong, my family is a great one! my mom, dad, brothers and sister are the best and most supportive people ever.
but like every other family we have our problems. it seems that now everyone's problems are ocurring at the same time and rising to a boiling point.
i have always had a problem with tension. i can't stand it, it makes me extremely nervous.
i have talked to my family about this, and of course they understand and try to help, but the fact is, life has problems. its not their fault, its just life.
the problem is how i FEEL it building. its like being trapped in a room with water rising slowly, and you know that you are going to drown.
today i found out that our eleven year old dog is dying of cancer, so now all of us are kind of sad, even though we haven't said anything yet to each other.
and the tension rises
im writing this to see if any of the tension i feel can go down
thanks for putting up with this rambling post! =)

[likewater]

How sad. You are very good at describing what you feel.

[darkwillow]

I understand about tension. it is horrible when it builds up and yet doesnt release. you are lucky having a supportive family. I am sorry to hear about your dog. That is so sad. I released some tension yesterday but not enough. lots more to come out. my head aches with it all. IT is good to write it all down.