I REALLY like this guy, we started talking for a couple months and was soooo sweet and i really felt like he was the one.
We hookup and he is the one that took my virginity. We kept talking for a little while and then stopped..... then we talked again and stop again. idk whats happening

and now tomorrow 3/30/2012 there is this big party going on and all these people are invited and he is going to and i really want to see him but I have really bad self esteem issues with my body and everything. Theyre will be very slutting girls there in short dresses and girls grinding with all these guys and i dont want the guy i like to be one of them

i really want to go to the party and have fun but i dont know if i should because ill feel so ugly and fat compared to these girls there and i dont know if i can handle being there with him and all these other girls. I want to go and see him and stuff but i dont know if i can handle my jealously.... should i go? Please help me!