[Switch]

So, my gf is coming over for dinner (date?).... and I am 80% sure she's going to break up with me.

On is from a tarot reading, call me crazy, and it might not be about her but I'm PRETTY DAMN SURE! (death card.... and then I asked what it's about and got Queen of cups)

And the other is that I missed our valentines date... because of another ****ing panic attack...

I don't want to lose her, but I also want the best for her, and as I am such a pathetic girlfriend, I don't think I am. I'm not going to break up with her, but I want her to have someone who can make her happy. This isn't the first time I've missed dates because of MI, and I don't really know what else to do!

Any ideas how I can prove my worth?

[Harley47]

Well, if I were you, I'd simply apologize with sincerity for missing Valentine's, and explain that I had a panic attack and wasn't able to make it. Note, sincerely apologizing is not begging forgiveness. Just acknowledge your actions (which I wouldn't be so quick to call a wrong...if you truly had a panic attack, that's nothing you can help), and move on from there.

That's very selfless of you wanting the best for your girlfriend. That's how I've always defined true love (or at least part of it). That being said, with that mentality, I wouldn't consider you to be pathetic to your partner.

I think things will be okay. I think it'd be very strange to schedule a dinner to break up with someone. At least, that's me.

Take care. My best to you.

[Switch]

Thanks Harley,

Dinner went alright, but I don't get to go with her to meet her parents on reading week. She wasn't mad at me and I apologized. I think the whole thing with meeting her parents is just that reading week is bad for them, but paranoid me is saying that's my punishment... hey, at least it's not self inflicted!

I'm going to try and let this go... I need to just accept that this might work out, it might not, but either way I'll get through this.

Yeah, I really do love her... I should say it more.