[PrincessxKitty]

I was in a relationship for 4 1/2 years - it started when I was 16 and ended a few months before my 21st birthday. We were planning on getting married (ring and everything), lived together for 3 years. He accepted the fact that I'm bipolar and spoiled me rotten the first couple of years we were together. In the last year of our relationship, we moved an hour away when he transferred schools.
He got frustrated that I wouldn't change my "habits" and control my episodes. And we ended our relationship around April of 2011. Considering that was a major event in my life, I'm still pretty surprised I've dealt with it pretty well (for me at least, I'm usually pretty sensitive)

So about 5 months ago I joined a dating site expecting to just go on date and have fun without getting into a relationship, but I ended up connecting with someone; one thing lead to another and now we're in a relationship. We do live an hr and half away from each other and both have busy schedules so that does put a bit of a strain, but we work it out.

I also had a period of time where I wasn't constant with my meds (insurance issues) and now I'm currently trying to get back to stability again with all my meds

One dilemma I've been having is; I constantly find myself wanting to break it off impulsively. Sometimes it when I'm in a "low", sometimes when manic. I've constantly rationalized it with myself (still do) to see if there's an actual reason, there never is. Good thing I've gotten better about thinking before doing...

So my question is.. Is there anyone whose having the same dilemma where they have the "impulsive" desire to break off their relationship? for no reason?