[Purple Heart]

I’m just airing my memories of EXTREME psychological and physical abuse done by my eldest sister. Through therapy I have reconnected with the inner child when he was age 2. Another way to look at is as body memories which told me of the EXTREME bullying that commenced by my evil older sister who was six years older than me at the time. Last night I was able to allow that child in me to SCREAM his heart out at her and my pathetic mother and father who stood by and allowed her to do that to me. I don’t think I’ve screamed so much in my life but it was so cathartic to get it out! I then felt a HUGE weight come off my shoulders and started to experience healing of that psychological injury.

Discovering this has set me free since what happened at age 2 directly CORRELATES to the MAJOR DEPRESSION and PTSD I had as an adult. Now in the last nine months that I have done intense inner child healing my major depression has vanished, although I still have temporary depression in relation to contemporary problems from time to time.

That abuse that occurred at such an early age has really ****ed up my life until I developed awareness of the child abuse. In fact I consider that it was actually sexual abuse because I was bullied because I was a boy, unwanted in the family. My body memories tell me that my mother got the eldest evil sister to bully me because my mother never wanted a boy since she has BIG ISSUES with the male sex. She wanted to beat out any maleness in me as a child! Yes I know it’s very disturbing to hear this but unfortunately it was/is the awful truth. Any other men or women have a similar experience of not being wanted, even bullied or abused because of your sex??