Mixed Feelings.. HELP me????

Mixed Feelings..
I've been with my GF for 17 months, in the beginning I was crazy about her, I just wanted her, then I proposed her, after 2 months she accepted me, then I was very happy, then in between we had many fights, but I was always the one saying sorry and apologizing, whenever there was a fight she always gave a crap to it, leaving it all on me to say sorry as I was really crazy about her, but recently things happened to change between us, we had gaps of one one weeks, then one day i decided to not go back to her because i was so pissed off, after one week she came saying sorry, i was not going to forgive her but my friend explained me and we got back, from that time I've never been as attached as I was before, till now I have a feeling that I don't like her, and I don't want to live with her, i just don't have any feelings for her, and now she is more than crazy for me, she wants me at any cost, but I told her that all my feelings are gone, and she just keeps crying all the time that she just needs me, she can't live without me, she will die..
And I know that SHE TRUELY LOVES ME MORE THAN ANYTHING, but I don't feel like being with her anymore, i just don't have any feelings for her, and I've told her about this many times, and I've asked her to give me a month break so I can sort out that what I have to do, whether I want to be with her or not, but she is crying dying saying that live with me or leave, so I said that if you can't cooperate with me then I'm leaving you, and I left her....

I think I can't live with her because I don't love her BUT I don't really want to hurt her, I just cant see her crying

What should I do???
She's a very very very nice girl now, she loves me more than anything, i know this...
Please anyone suggest me what to do???

I know I can't find a better loving girl, but for the girl who loves me like anything I've no feelings, please tell me??

I am sorry, but for my own clarification, this is what happened?

You proposed, and she accepted. You started having fights, and you decided to ease off, so to speak. Your friend convinced you to go back to her, but now you don't feel the same way about her while she is madly in love with you?

I apologize, but I wanted to make sure I have a basic grasp of things before I offer advice.

I would tell you two things right now. As a couple adjusting to such a huge change as proposal, fights are going to naturally happen. That is not at all uncommon. But as far as you not feeling how you used to, I would tell you to give it a little time. If things don't improve, it's not fair to you or her to commit to something as huge as marriage without feeling 100% sure about it.

I hope things work out for you, and I wish you my best.

I'm with Harley on this one. I don't know what she did to make you so mad during that last fight to change your feeling so completely but it must have been a dilly!

But since you were SO crazy about her before and proposed, etc., I'd give it some time. You don't want to mess things up completely only to find that you really DO love her -- so give it some time to make SURE you want to call the whole thing off. Just tell her to give you some space for awhile and you'll get back to her.

I hope things work out the way you want them to. God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee