sunshine after a dark night full of night mares

special hi to everyone who's been following my threads and special thanks for all support and advices.
so here it goes yesterday was a very decisive day. had to take a serious decision.
so my cheat husband and me talked about divorce and he took the phone number of me ex and started texting him that it was because of him our marriage was breaking. i was very upset and angry at him for that i lied to him that the guy wasn't my ex as i didn't want him to know the truth and trusted my ex when he forwarded me my husband's sent msgs for me to know what he said.
but when my husband and me started arguying on the phone when i was already at work asking him what he was doing and why as i didn't want to lose face in front of my friends (who was my ex in that case) and the fellow is engaged so i didn't want him to get trouble. but when my husband started saying that he (ie my ex) said that i was the one who was texting him constantly and that even he didn't like it and that his fiancee also didn't like it i was shocked because of all i know our conversations was always without force from me sometimes he would be the one to txt me or call and he made me beleive ha wasn't in love with his fiancee and that he rarely goes to c her and that I was the one and only true love but he has to get married because of family so he is doing but of coarse i would always tell him not to make the girl suffer and to be serious with his relationship as i know how it hurts when the girl would suffer and i didn't want to be the cause of her suffering i had no inttention whatsoever to maintain a relationship with him. firstly as soon i heard he got engaged i had stopped txtg i even deleted his phone number because i know that when i had issues with my husband i would tend to get support from him but now that he was engaged i shouldn't do that but HE contacted me again and i did tell him my intentions but he said he was ok with it.so we still txt at times but now i dont understand why he lied to my husband.. so for his case i deleted his contact num again and unfriend him on my fbk acct..
coming to my marital issue i was so angry with my husband that i decided thats it i should do something so i contacted a lawyer and took an appointment yesterday i went see her.. on my way to her i did something i was in bus crying and lost in my thoughts when i heard people arguying. an old age tended a note to conductor to pay for transport and the conductor told him he had no change that the man should accompany him to final stop so that he could change the money so i simply took out my purse and paid for the uncle. we got off the same stop and he returned me the money inspite of my saying no its ok and he paid my next trip so before getting off i touched him and thanked him and he like gave me a blessing and i secretely wished that i find a way out of my troubles.
so i found a way. i met the lawyer and talked my heart out EVERYTHING mental state husbadn cheat physical relationship EVERYTHING and she was like god sent she made me realised i still loved that man and i was unhappy because i cared for him. so loads of talking went and she told me to give the wedding a last chance as she saw there were things that could be saved like the four month since i discovered about the cheat my husband was doing all his possible to mend things whichi was overlooking and she took me to my husbands office and there i just said hi dropped by to see u and he was happily surprised the expression was worth seeing.
and here goes our marriage on a new and firm base..love him loads and says it without hesitation