[ZeldaxGoddess]

I've been with my boyfriend for over 2 years now. We were happily together the first 6months. Then I started cheating on him for about a year straight. About 2 months apart from the other. We would break up about every 4 months and get back together 3-5 days later. He's Wonderful and comes with everything you would ever want in a guy. He makes me hand made presents. Like on my birthday in 2010 he made me a heart-shaped wooden jewelry box with red velvet inside, the letter "S" on top for my name, and our date "3/9/10" at the bottom. On our 1 year anniversary he made me a wooden plaque about 10"x10" saying "Forever and After Samantha" with two roses on either side. And on Valentines day of 2011 he made me a mirror with a frost on it saying "Happy Valentines Day Samantha". He doesn't have a job because he doesn't have a car &Refuses to get one until he has a car. He hit me about a year ago because I cheated on him. He hit me again at school because he took a text message from a friend the wrong way. Causing him to get suspended until the next year. Now, since 2012, I haven't cheated on him. I haven't done anything to him and I am gaining his trust back. I wish he would let me hang out with guys. I want to. But I don't want to, because I have troubles being rude to people and let people run me over. And maybe thats a good thing. I want to wait until we live together for me to hang out with guys, is that a bad idea? That will be around January of 2014. I want to be able to go out with my friends but he won't let me because he's not around ( I recently moved about an hour drive away from him). So I get off work and facetime with him every night. I spend my off days driving to his house and staying the night there until I have work again. It's about a $100-150/month for gas going to see him. I love him and I want to be with him, but for some reason I don't want to be with him. Something tells me, no, you need to be with him. He is "The one". When we break up, I feel lost. But when were together, I'm on top of the world. Yet, I won't have sex with anyone when we're broken up. When we are dating, I don't care. Except now in 2012, I care, a lot. I haven't cheated yet and I am proud of myself. I can't explain our whole relationship in such little time. But please.. from what I have explained. Please help me out.. I know there is something wrong that i'm causing in this relationship, but I want a solid opinion on what exactly it is. I know there is something wrong that HE is causing, or I THINK there is; but, I can't quite put my finger on it, either. So please, Help me out.

Much love,
Sami

[Leed]

Well, there's something wrong with BOTH of you. Why do you cheat on him? And why do you stay with someone who HITS you? The first time someone laid a hand on me would be the LAST TIME I'd be around that person! NO ONE has the right to lay a hand on another person!!!

Since he's so wonderful, why did you cheat on him? He does all these wonderful things for you, and yet you cheat on him. I dont get it. There must be something lacking somewhere, or something you're not telling us.

Personally, I think this relationship is pretty toxic for both of you. I'd get out. Just my opinion. Best of luck & God bless. Hugs, Lee

[krisakira]

It sounds to me like you guys need a break. With all these problems, it might be best that you aren't in any relationship for a while. Not sure what else I can come up with. Sometimes it helps a lot to just step back.

[Jan1212]

Well he has a solid reason why he doesn't trust you, he found out you cheated on him. It seems like there is low self esteem and validation issues and self worth in whch sometimes you temporarily solved by cheating , you just don't want to be considered single because of that sense of validation and self worth. IN general, infidelity is a big issue, it just wil lbe difficult from now, but it really depends on you two, a lot of people are still finding themselves out especially in high school, we all did, you don't want to be caught in all that when education is an important thing