[achutty11]

i was in love with my husband and we got married before three years .Things were fine till i gave birth to my baby after that i felt an avoiding from the side of my partner.Later it went strong but i didn't considered it as a big issue.before last 1 month my husband forcefully tried to send me to my house.i disagreed.later on one day he sent me with my parents along with my baby.but later i came to know that he went to meet someone in banglore two hours after i left with my parents.on next week he came to my home to take me back when i asked about his banglore journey he became angry and came back to his house alone.on the next day he called me asking me to go with him as he is suffering from leg pain.2 days after i went there and found car out of car porch which is not usual it seems like he just came after going somewhere.i didnt went to my husband .i went to a lady in the neighbouring house and talked and discussed about my worries about him to her after 1 hour when i came back i found 1 girl coming out of my house with my husband and getting into the car .i called everyone nearby and arround 100 people surrounded there.i behaved like a mad girl.i loved my husband so truly and trusted him more than anyone.i felt like i lost everything.i tried to even kill that girl but the people there locked me inside my house.After that my husband asked me to forgive him and said he didnt did anything with that girl and called her only for some interview to show her something on the laptop when i searched the browser history i found only porn videos. actually i couldnt forgive him.but i cant live without him.how can i forget everything?i am sleepless after that incident which happened on july 12 2012.sometimes i am trying to hurt myself .i dont have the courage to commit suicide otherwise i had done this already.please suggest me what to do in this situation.?can i forget everything. i am trying hard for that but that moment is getting into my mind everytime.