How can I trust myself and let go?

Hi, I'm Bailey. 18. I have some sort of emotional problem and trust issues due to my past relationship and from my parents never being there while I was growing up.

I say that because that affects me today in my relationship. I have this huge trust issue. I wouldn't even say I'm emotional... it's more irrational. I've been dating this guy for over a year and a half. He has been dealing with my trust issues for about 6 months now, thanks to my father leaving my family out of no where and I finally found out he's been with this other woman for 8 years. I kind of figured. Well he's been pretty nice about it, but the other day we actually got into a fight about it.

I've been trying to fix myself and I was doing well until my period came around. Now I've been slipping with "trusting myself" to trust him. Ultimately, I know that's what it comes down to. I need to trust myself. I have no idea how to or where to begin. He said if I can't learn to trust him, he can't see us moving together. (we are/were planning to move to Texas sometime in the summer)

It's little things that trigger me. I just want to be happy with myself so I can be happy with him. How can I trust myself and let go?

I know this is not what you are asking about, but it caught my eye that you plan on moving from Illinois to Texas in summer. I did something similar moving to Austin in August and found the climate absolutely shocking.

Yeah, I'm ready for the heat though! I'll hopefully be moving to Northern Texas in Denton or something. I'm just looking forward to the mild winters haha

Ok, good, then in that are you can find cheap therapy and work on trust issues.

I think first you have to trust yourself to understand that HE is NOT your father. He hasn't shown any signs of leaving you in the lurch, unless you continue to act irrationally -- and he's told you that. He isn't being dishonest or sneaky.

He WANTS you to trust him. He wants to have an open relationship with you where both of you can talk about things ~ and be rational. He expects when he tells you something, that you'll trust what he says.

If he has ever shown signs of lying to you, then I would understand. But if he hasn't, then you're going to have to learn to trust him. If you've been with him for a year and a half, and he's stayed all thru this, then I'd say he's a pretty good guy. Hang onto him.

God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee