Hello PsychCentral users...oh cmoon I can't exactly do all of you ;3

I am nineteen. I am aware that this is a young age & I've 'got all the time in the world to have boyfriends' but that's the thing.

Now boyfriends come and go, I for one know this, but so far I've been with 4 guys (1 very briefly after school finished, 1 for a year that was like a bad rollar-coaster, 1 after that one finished which lasted for about 8 months, & the last for about a year & a bit) & in neither of them did I really feel that much connection with the guys/men...different ages tbh..

I want to find someone I really get on with. I don't really get much joy out of having flings with random men makes me feel empty & wanting more (not sexually). I don't really want a 'boyfriend' as such...I want more of a 'partner'.. My closest friend.. Soul mate..

The people I've spoken to & met up with on POF, I have to say haven't had much success-stories with. They are either mega interested in me but I can't feel any attraction or 'spark' whatsoever, I am interested in them but they end up being someone I find I'm not very attracted to personality-wise, or if I have met the 'perfect match' I end up being too apprehensive to meet up with them, they live too far away, or I just think that they won't like me/I won't be interesting/sexy/fun/whatever is attractive enough for anyone.

I just want a nice guy I find superficially and personality-wise attractive...Is that too much to ask for?

I know I haven't dated in the 'real world' but tbh I am a quiet person in nature with a lot in her head (both good and bad matter of speaking) & I probably don't attract the same attention as these other girls who are louder...I am told I'm gorgeous, stunning, beautiful....but it's not enough to just call me nice names....You know...?

I'm too reluctant/introverted to open up to someone. Perhaps I'm just not ready but then again will I ever be? I don't think so...tbh...

What do you guys think?

p.s. I also have a medical problem-kinda embarassing to do with my bowel....I've never bothered getting into longterm r/ships because I've always assumed this would be a major turn off... well it got me bullied for years at school.....so.....it's bowels....you know.....poop?.....yeah....Grim right?

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I do not think soulmates exist and I highly doubt one could find them over the internet.
But that's just my opinion. Welcome.

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i personally don't think it's safe or wise to try and date online. I think that the best way to meet someone is in a group setting, it takes the pressure off. I'm off the market now lol but just offering advice I found helpful when i was dating.
and as for your medical problem, if you meet the right person, they will love and accept you, flaws and all. My husband says he loves me because of my flaws, I find this hard to believe, as most love someone in spite of their flaws lol
I didn't go on my first date til i was 17. not that i'm "normal" lol whatever that is, but the best relationships are worth waiting for