[Grey Matter]

I am terrible at making friends. I always have been. I tend to be quiet, reserved. I'd much rather observe than become involved. That being said, I don't have many friends here at home. I have four. And recently, it seems all I have been doing is starting pathetic arguments and causing misunderstandings because socially, I am extremely inept.

If it is something I am doing, which I'm sure it is, I can't figure it out. I got into an argument with a friend because I couldn't understand her misplaced concern. And instead of explaining, as I asked kindly, she told me "I don't care. Do what ever you want.".

I am trying to figure it out. I am. I don't want to be a terrible friend to the few friends I have. But I am a terrible person.

[kaliope]

It sounds like you have answered your question in your own post. that doesn't make you a terrible person though. just someone who isn't being conscious of his own actions. try listening to your friends more and not pushing them away if you want to keep them.

[Grey Matter]

In my head, I can approach this situation with logic and a clear head, but the moment I try verbalizing my explanations and apologies to my friends, I am unable to do so. And they think I am being insincere. I am a terrible person, it is something I have accepted over time. I just wish it was something I could protect my friends from.