[razeljenny]

I feel happy about what I did this summer, but not good enough to dedicate myself to my school classes beings that it is a pell grant and I feel mentally weak and somewhat unfulfilled emotionally, hurt and worn out because My girlfriends didn't give me enough support from my hometown. I just expected more care from my closest girlfriend and can't figure out why she has not replyed to me, so I feel rejected and shunted. She really was so close to me for such a long time especially at the school. (She is a professional councelor there) (But she usually has off during the summer-I needed more help from her during her break and she may resent that-too) There hasn't been a call or e-mail from her, no communication what so ever. Maybe she is sick. I don't know. I feel sick, so sick and in a week, I may just drop the classes and go to the mental health day center instead to build up myself to stronger good feelings and physical and mental health. I did not take very good physical care of myself the last 3 months and did not really get as much from the friendships and recovery group (actually mental battery from my AA group for getting involved with a guy that was only in recovery for a year-that they accused me of 13th stepping. He never claimed that at all, but it isn't a good transaction from my fellowship and no one will "shut up in directly rassing me all about my rotten behaviour" Both of us did not orginally feel awful about our new beginning, but he is getting worn in their direction. I can see when the thing has crashed

a good and decent group at AA would not treat you that way. drop them. find a smaller group.....we talked and you need to take care of yourself. pat

[alisandria]

I don't understand all of what you mean about your AA group...hope you can find what you need.

[razeljenny]

will try again