[tealBumblebee]

Bff really likes to hang out and do things. I don't often oblige (probably agree 25% of the time) for three reasons:

1) He has a hx of "liking me" and i'm honestly not sure he's as "over that" as he claims to be...
2) Sometimes I just don't like to do stuff (call it depression, call it schizo - the point is, I just don't "want to" and then sometimes I don't like to hear my mothers mouth about how much we hang out and its easier to just stay in my room - and yes I am an adult...)
3) I'm his only friend (his words) and when I do agree to hang out with him he starts wanting to hang out more and more (leave it to him and it would literally be everyday).

I keep finding myself making excuses of why not to hang out because I never feel like any reason is valid enough. And sometimes (like today) he gets angry because of my "excuses". But can you blame him- aren't you supposed to want to hang out with your bff? I do know that I say no a lot.

And even further, I know most times he has limited funds but he always wants to do things and then "claims" he has enough money - when he literally just told me hours before how broke he was. I know his funds are his business but is it really being a good friend if I allow him to "treat me" to things (because I know i'm broke) when I know he can't afford it? I even know of a time where he went to get a cash advance just to go to the movies with me the day before he got paid - and I told him we could have easily went the next day.

I don't feel like i'm in the wrong by not allowing him to waste his money on me, but I do feel like because I say "no" so often that when I do agree to hang out with him - i'm using him (in a personal satisfaction/happiness/socializing aspect). I'm trying to learn how to be a better friend in general. So how can I draw the line with him without feeling like i'm in the wrong?