I'm at the point in developing a relationship that I get stuck.

I've never been in a relationship, mainly because I go from having a crush on/having feelings for someone, to talking to them/getting to know them (but not hanging out) to not knowing what to do next as my feelings are so strong I can barely handle them anyway, to just trying to avoid the person, cut my losses and trying to tone down the feelings all the way back to zero.

And so I've recently developed feelings for someone new. We've talked but I'm afraid to ask to hang out because I don't think I could stay in control of myself. Let's just say that on a scale of 0-100, my sex drive is less than 10 usually (mainly because of medication side effects) until I'm within the same room with this guy and then it's probably more like 110. I feel like the attraction is so strong that it will override even my values. Even though I really enjoy being around him, it's kind of painful in a way that I have to suppress the urge to make any kind of physical contact (and I'm not talking anything sexual, just touching his hand or his arm or something) as touching someone at all outside of a relationship just seems wrong to me. I only hug other people because they ask me for it…I don't ever really want to hug somebody myself.

Also, this sudden and rather extreme attraction isn't solely based on looks…actually I think looks really don't factor in that much at all. This will sound ridiculous, but I found myself to nervous to really look directly at him in the beginning so until recently I hadn't fully discovered what he actually looked like. And now that do, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have chosen him on looks alone (although he isn't bad looking at all).

Now, what is my next move? The illogical side of me just wants to tell him how I feel, just so I don't have to suppress it so much if we were to hang out and they I would have permission to make physical (non-sexual) contact with him.

The logical side of me tells me that I should just ask if he wants to hang out or Skype to get to know each other better, but if we do end up in the same room together that I should suppress my feelings and desires at least to an acceptable level.

I'm just afraid that that's coming on too strong…Like saying that I miss him between the Sundays that we get to see each other and I just want to hang out/talk to him via Skype perhaps in between times. And when do I actually admit to having any sort of feelings? At the point where I'm about to explode from excitement from being around him? I just never know the right time.