[sweepy62]

So, I let my guard down a bit, now I feel extreme guilt that I have betrayed my old t, because , with my old t I had not let my guard down at session 3. Today we went over what stuff makes me feel guilty, and it had to do with (csa stuff) but nothing specific detail, just a list of stuff like feelings, example: not being able to say no. stuff like that.

Which to me is a HUGE step being that I dont know this lady or TRUST this lady,it seemed that she was elated, she thanked me for letting her in a little bit and showing her so much courage, and letting part of my wall down, she knew it was extremely hard for me.
She hoped that next session I would not shut down, because of this. She says she is bringing toys next week to her office, as my old t told her she had toys in her office to keep me distracted, as I spoke. I did like that.

She also told me she uses art therapy, which is good because I brought some drawings in to show feelings, thats one of my ways of communicating, she is using an ecletic approach, didnt bother asking, what the heck that is because i was too nervous.
she said we will be together for a long time. I just feel so guilty like I betrayed my old t trust or something.

This new t book me for 3 sessions ahead of time, something old t never did, same day same time, wednesdays at 11 my fav day and time. She is very challenging which i love, I love a good challenge and debate.

She is working on my pace, she will not get into csa, yet, working on current stressors and guilt and triggers, except that she knows that guilt and trigger have to do with the past, but she says that will help us with our future csa work, and we are going to work on the words I cant say regarding csa, so when we do csa work, our conversation will go somewhat a "bit" smoother.
She has a sense of humor.

I told her when the time comes that we talk of csa, I will edit out stuff, so I will edit stuff out so I wont disgust her or scare her away, and she seem bothered, she says she expects me to be OPEN HONEST and no editing out anything.

[pinkbutterfly]

I think it's great that you feel so comfortable with her. I honestly think your old T would be grateful that you found someone you can connect with so easily. Maybe this new T can take you further than your old T could. It's like every T really is different - and we will get different things from different ones. So while your old T fulfilled her purpose...your new T has stepped in and is taking you further on your journey.

I'm really happy for you that you were able to open up to her the way you did. It may seem scary now, but I really do believe it will benefit you.

[sweepy62]

Thx for your reply, I just realized I put it in th wrong forum.

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

Thx for your reply, I just realized I put it in th wrong forum.

I did wonder about that...