[speedbird]

Whenever I'm down, he always says things like "Setsuna, I'm your friend, right?" and stuff like that, in order to comfort me. That's it. That's all he does. The rest of the time, he never even acknowledges me.

For instance, he was the only person to not congratulate me on my recent admission into the University of Ottawa. He also never apologized to me for not inviting me on one of our friends' outings, and he probably never will, because he's a bastard. When I told him that I have a joke, he responded "your intellect?"

He just flat out ignores me, and never treats me with as much enthusiasm as our other friends. And no, I'm not being paranoid!

I honestly don't know what to do. My parents have forbidden me from writing angry emails to people, or saying things that might offend others, because of run-ins with the law due to my OCD.

Should I just ignore him back? Should I try to be as polite as possible and attempt to have a gentle talk with him? I don't know if I could ever be "gentle" with him, considering how he stabbed me in the back and turned against me.

[A Red Panda]

Why would you even consider him a friend? I would just not bother to waste my time on him, but I would be polite when seeing him while out with others.

[speedbird]

To be honest, I don't consider him to be my friend, he considers us to be friends. And we hang out with the same group of people, so we have to see each other.

I've kind of had it with everyone. I try to be nice, I try to be friendly and enthusiastic. And everyone just screws with me. This past semester I've had three people come to me to criticize my personality. Three times, I've been criticized. Other people in my school are never called out for their own atrocious personalities, other people are doing just fine socially.

Oh well, at least next year I'm going to university. Thank goodness, I'll never have to see any of those people again.

[speedbird]

UPDATE: I just had a fight with one of my friends.

He said that I go through moments in which I'm a good friend. You know, I share my interests with other people and whatnot. THEN, I go through moments in which I'm the "biggest asshole in the world".

He basically told me next that he doesn't care about anything I say, because I'm me. He said that my hatred of the world will do nothing good for me.

I told him that everyone started hating ME first, and that I have the complete right to hate this world.

Before our conversation ended, I told him this: "When you go through what I go through, that is a crappy relationship with your brother that does nothing to repair your self esteem, OCD, thinking you're a child molester and actively seeking punishment for it, and years of suicidal tendencies, don't expect to come out of it sane."

He asked me "Do you think I care? Do you think anyone cares?" He told me that what I'm thinking will be my downfall.

They just don't get it.

[Djinn8]

It sounds to me that this guy likes to assert his authority with put downs. The next time he calls your intellect a joke or whatever, dis his dress sense or something in return. Get a good delivery going and before you know it you'll be having "yo' mamma's so fat" contests (well not that exactly, but that's kind of the spirit of it).

Saying stuff like in the post above isn't how you play the game. He calls you a loser and at present you turn around and say "Yeah I'm a loser. You would be a loser if you lived my loser life"... well sorry, but you just lost.

[Scotty204]

If I were you I would distance myself from these people right now. It sounds like you're in with the wrong crowd that's all. You'll make new and better friends along the way.