BP & Going Through A Breakup

Hello all. I am going through a breakup with someone who I have been dating for 7 months. I know 7 months isn't all that long, but I really thought he was 'the one'. He's a GREAT guy, a little immature (he's 22), but mature for his age and for this generation.

I was at a point where it felt like it was a love/hate relationship. I NEEDED space. I get so agitated that even his breathing makes me mad. I've expressed this to him & he just doesn't understand. What frustrates me even more is that he says he does (or says he gives me space) and he just doesn't. And how can I expect him to understand things that I don't even get...?? ((I'm so glad I found this site, by the way, I think its going to help EMMENSELY))

He tries to be lovey and cuddly, and the more he pushes for that, the more I want to push him away. I've come to the conclusion that I just cant love him the way he needs to be loved right now. He used to handle me very well, and its come to the point where I think he is so frustrated with the situation, and feeling lonely that he started acting a bit aggressive (punched my car window & acted like he was going to throw a dresser at me). Which, I guess I get, b/c I get aggressive (I punched him the face a couple times recently). He doesn't do it often, but he has called me a couple of names when I'm 'in a mood'. I confronted him about that, and he said he did it b/c I was acting some type of way. ((& that doesn't give him the right to call me names))

I have come to realize that some of my agitation towards him stems from his stupidity. He doesn't think things through sometimes. I have a hard time letting things go as well, so that doesn't help. Not to mention that when I'm not as affectionate as he would like me to be, he kind of whines about it & that really aggravates me & makes me want to be even less affectionate. It makes me view him as less of a man & look down upon him in disgust in a way.

IDK what to do...

I really do love him, but my disorder makes me hate him. I really do think that I want to make this work with him, but I have a lot of work to do on myself first. Its to the point that I cant even communicate with him b/c I get so p***ed off b/c he doesn't understand. I get this rush of rage that comes over me & I cant seem to control it. It makes me want to hit him. So I walk away, sometimes without any notice (I've also explained this to him). That's the best way for me to handle the situation, until I can calm myself down. But he gets his panties in a bunch about that... Grrrrrr.

He tells me that two people who really love each other stick together & work things out, so I tried it his way for a few months & its making me worse. I feel like he makes me feel crazier than what I really am. I told him that I need time and space to get my head right & he flat out said that he couldn't do that & that's not how relationships work. I said that I didn't know what to tell him then. He called me a 'worthless piece of s**t" and txt me some other nasty stuff (saying that I did to him what I did to my ex & to keep doing what I do best (ruining people's lives) & that I was cold hearted.

Theres more that I want to write, but I already feel like I wrote too much...
HELP PLEASE!!!!


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Break up and work on yourself in therapy?

There is nothing healthy about hitting your partner, name calling, or destroying property. Things don't change unless both people commit to it through their actions.