[hotchicken]

My whole life I have always felt like I am not a real person. Others seem to be doing things the "right" way and they all seem normal.

I feel like I can't even talk or relate to anyone. So I stay in seclusion.

No one shows me any respect. I have lost all contact with relatives except parents. I want to lose all contact with them but don't know how to get away from them. I feel as if I can't make any more money or have no time to make any more. I am very depressed, hardly speak to anyone, and am always be myself. My kids do not respect me and neither do my parents.

I am constantly walking on eggshells waiting to be yelled at by parents or belittled or told I am doing something wrong again.

It is no wonder I have sever selective mutism as a child, am depressed and suffered from panic disorder years ago.

I feel like I am watching everyone else live their lives while my life just passes by.

[Alone & confused]

I feel like an unwanted guest in my own life sometimes. I know what you mean about watching life pass you by while others seem to go on with there lives. This is the only place where I can find ANYONE who understands what I'm going through! I hope being here helps you not to feel alone in your times of trouble.

[Smellyfinger]

I feel the same way. Everyone 'normal' seems to be doing just fine and here I am getting old not talking to anyone and pretending I don't exist.

I've always been disrespected by everyone and when I do the same back to them I get scolded like it was my fault.

People are flawed. If you're not normal without issues then you're looked down upon as a burden.

If these normal people spent one day dealing with what we go through, I bet they would opt out in a heartbeat

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I know what you mean. I had selective mutism as a child too and I had panic disorder from 12 years old to 17 years old... Perhaps you could get some medication for depression & anxiety and try to push yourself out of your shell? I know how hard it is. Maybe you could try group therapy if you're comfortable enough with it. You might be surprised that some people may be able to relate with you and not judge you.