[atomicc]

I tried to talk to my mom today, about how I've been feeling. A lot of energy and what not, racing thoughts. I asked about my grandma, who from what I remember was also mentally ill. Then I told her I'd like to get off meds because I feel good but worry I'll regret it when I go back to depression.
"Every one gets sad"
"I know, but my sad is different. It's all consuming, won't get out of bed, might as well be dead sad"

"Don't talk to me about that. I don't want to hear it. You're fine. Stop being weak."

I am so very sick of that word coming from her mouth.

[HealingTimes]

I am so sorry that you had that response from her.
Do you think that she doesn't like to talk about it because as a child of someone who felt like that, it must be difficult for her, brings back unpleasant memories for her? That is NOT excusing her behaviour AT ALL. just a thought.

Sometimes we need to accept that the people that we most WANT to talk to about these feelings, wont/cant listen. In this case we need to find alternative sources of support. Do you have any one else that you can talk to?

I hope its OK if I send you huge hugs? ((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))).x.

[Trippin2.0]

I just want to say I know how you feel!

While my wounds are not fresh, because my mom said those words to me (repeatedly) as a teenager and then again a few years ago after I was dxd, I still remember very clearly how much that accusation and invalidation stung!

You wanna know what I did?

I shocked the ever living shyt out of her!

I handed her some printed versions of my threads, and told her that if she still thought I was weak, wearing my heart on my sleeve, or the pdocs are conspiring against me, after she read that, then I will believe her and never utter the words bipolar or depression, with regards to me ever again.

I walked in on her reading it, and she looked mortifed. I'm sorry I know its mean to laugh at her, but it served her right for thinking I get sad like everyone else!

I love my mom, and while she will never apologize or be my confidant, she's atleast a silent source of support now. Which means she steps in and helps out with my daughter when I'm struggling, and understands why I can't work fulltime anymore.

I'm sorry your mom is like mine was, I really am. I hope she too manages to emerge from her denial bubble, one way or the other.

Its true what was written above though, not everyone can be the person you need them to be, sometimes we need to locate alternate sources.

I would be cautious of who you share your personal issues with for this exact reason. You know she's judgemental about it and not supportive. Instead save it for people you can truly trust to support and understand you or at the very least, try to understand you.

[live2ski66]

My mother and her entire family (my aunts, uncles, cousins) think and behave like your mother. My father, "believed" as much as his scientific brain allowed. He went as far as writing my PDoc a series of questions about my disease, such as, was it something he did, what can he do to cure me, how can he support me long distance etc. it's unfortunate the queen B doesn't have 1/4 of his intelligence and compassion. She's just wasting our finite resources by staying alive.