[cjw2013]

After much courage, and after many tears from heartbreak, I finally said my goodbyes, to the man I love and hold so close to my heart.

Almost 5 years later, and two previous short term break-ups, it was time to end this unhealthy, destructive relationship. Too many lies, so much deceit. Emotional and Verbal abuse, I was dying inside. I had to make a decision to save myself from any more despair and agony and start taking care of my mind and my body that I've neglected for way too long. I will eventually have some peace in my mind again.

I am going to miss him, long for him, for a long time. I don't hate him, I'm not bitter towards him, I want the best for him because I truly love him.

I'm afraid of going through this grieving process, I've been here before and it lasted too long and caused so much distress to my family. Does anyone know of a forum on this site that I can post to when in time of need? I need to stay strong, for my children, for myself. Any support from individuals who understand loss, grief, depression, would be so greatly appreciated.

Cj

[Rose3]

Sounds like you have some understanding of grieving, and hopefully you will move through this process towards that peace of mind that you need. Do you already know about the possible stages (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance, etc.). Perhaps try to realize what was unhealthy about the relationship, while appreciating any positive aspects. And allow yourself some time to settle your mind. Realize what you could not change. And plan for moving forward. You will get through this.

There is a forum for depression and for grief on this site, look at the main section.

[cjw2013]

Thanks emomom. I will look into those forums because right now I'm am truly grieving and depressed what I have lost. Breakups suck!