[cbranson]

I've just come to the realization that she might be bipolar or have BPD, because she works in patterns. She's normally depressed, quiet or very introvert. She cuts herself sometimes, is suicidal rarely, Draws a lot and stays inside. She's on meds for depression and likes to show her personality with clothes, music and coloring her hair crazy colors. (I do the same).

But when she breaks up with me (which is about every 4 - 5 months). It's usually out of NO REASON. She'll usually stop talking to me and act like I never even existed. She'll block me on every social media site with no way to contact her, and she'll usually say things like, "I HAVE NO FEELINGS FOR YOU, IVE BEEN THIS WAY FOR A LONG TIME." Which I know is ******** because the night prior.. she always gives me a gift she spent WEEKS hand making and she tells me, "Please don't ever leave me You mean so much to me, I love you with all my heart." and she's SO clingy to the point where she wants me to sleep with my skype on, so that she can see my face (but I love when shes clingy so I don't say anything and I give her all of my attention). She begs me to play videogames with her (which i do), get her chocolate at 12am to bring to her house, and begs to see pictures of me just to see quote, "How adorable I am." and save them to her phone. I honestly Love the attention <3. It's perfect.

We go to concerts together and bowling and everything but when she breaks up, she acts like it never happened. When she's not with me.. She's usually hyper and out being VERY extrovert and doing things she normally wouldn't do. Grabbing life by the balls. Keeping her hair normal, and listening to country music rather than screamo(her fav).

When she DOES dump me she usually ends up regretting it and doing things she regrets. But when she dumps me, she doesnt even tell me. She just stops texting me all together, and acts like I don't exist.. almost like she knows shes doing wrong but is avoiding the problem. She instantly goes from "I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MARRY ME OMG IF U LEAVE ME ILL PROBABLY BE DEPRESSED AND CUT" to... *blocks me on everything & deletes number.*

And she usually comes back after 3-4 months everytime. This has happened around 6 times.
She just dumped me to talk to a guy shes only known for about 3 days.

When shes not with me she'll date other people she would normally hate, or she'll wear clothes she usually hates or listen to country music when she normally listens to punk rock or screaming stuff. So long story short... When she's depressed and quiet, I'm the world to her. But when she gets randomly happy and a burst of energy, she literally wants me dead, and avoids all contact.

So my questions are...
Which of the 2 personalities is the REAL her? I'm worried because If She gets medicated.. she could stay that Hyper person forever and never think of me again?

Is she going to eventually want me back again? Or is she going to still love this other guy shes having fun with even after she comes off her Manic high, just because hes a nice guy.

And How long do manic episodes last?

Is she even bipolar? I heard something about BDP but idk how that works.

[healingme4me]

Not much here, to go on, where bpd labeling goes, and tbh, if she's being treated already for depression, she's under treatment and unfair to toss out labels.

Sounds difficult to hang onto a relationship that cycles in a pattern where you break up for 3-4months at a time.

Her break up behavior may seem manic and full force, yet, doesn't necessarily denote manic depression aka bi polar. ?

Better option may be to get some professional counseling to help figure out why you stay with this push/pull pattern. Sounds like a game of cat and mouse.

Are you long distance to her? Mentioned being on Skype at night time.

Hopefully she's dealing with her sh. The hair part, sounds like she's young and working on her identity.