[Macd123]

You'll have to forgive me because I'm pretty busy feeling sorry for myself right now - it's due to my inability to make relationship committments at this point in my life. Thanks everyone for the comments. I'm been kicking myself for years for not getting out there - a little romance would be a beautiful thing - I think. I gave some tulips to a girl at the coffee shop today - she smiled and said they were beautiful. It was a first day of Spring thing. She is just a kid to me but boy sure was nice having somebody appreciate that gesture. I'm really too sensitive to be alone but the problem is I've always been alone. Sometimes I shake when I'm alone - tears yeah there's been a lot of them. I've hardly ever told anyone that I've hated the road I've chosen. Funny thing is I've always put on this Court Jester face to the world. My relatives and the few friends (mostly acquaintances) I know see me as a loner but a loner who seems okay with it. This is not true - I am a twisted knot inside who has taken anti-depressants for years (few people know this too). Even writing this feels weird because I know the world isn't fair and this is just the way it is for some. I guess this is my minimal effort at change - I just hope I can change fast enough to really connect with something.

[Bill3]

You still have time to meet people!

What ideas do you have in mind, or could you think up or learn, for getting yourself out there more?

[Trippin2.0]

You have the right to make different choices, you can choose a different path, since you're unhappy with the current one.


No rule that says you can't change your mind.


Actually this reminds me of a song.... "it's never too late to change your mind, never too late we've still got time...."

[ptangptang]

Well done. The next step is to look at clubs and groups that you like the look of and get out and meet people. Meet up. Com is good. You sound very much like me. If you were in the UK near London I'd invite you on my days out in London. I've stopped them temporarily cos seeing couples and groups makes me feel more alone. I normally go to a lunchtime music gig then a museum or exhibition an d a play or a comedy club in the evening. Ideally I'd go with a woman but as hamlet said 'aye there's the rub'. Chance would be a fine thing, haha. 'Tis a resolution devoutly to be wished.'