[Yourself]

So, I have a question.I want to try doing better and make real friends with some one I recently met and genuinely like being around. Unfortunately other people close enough to me to care warn me this person is fake and I should avoid them. But they actually make me happy, even though I'm not sure why. Should I risk trying to be happy? Full disclosure, if it ends badly it may very likely be the final nail in my metaphorical coffin.

[Keyslost]

I think you should see for yourself what the other person is like. The other friends may be jealous or may be trying to protect you. I'd say it is worth it as long as your not giving up friends completely if it goes wrong or ending everything. Not sure what you meant at the end there. Just my thoughts .

[Yourself]

I mean that I'm pretty sure I simply gave up years ago when I was younger. Casually strolling though life being told this and that will happen. But again, I have given up before any of this would come to fruitition. I surrounded myself with things that made me happy and mostly kept to myself aside from a few close friends. For years I went on like this slipping lower and lower. Every now and then I fall deep and nothing makes me happy or feel good, and acknowledging these feelings just make me angrier and sadder. I'm tired and yawning all the time and lie awake some nights borderline crying in silence literally praying to fall asleep and never wake up. I spent years doing this with such episodes few and far apart. But I noticed lately they happen more often. I have a single friend who is far away successfully living his busy life. I have several acquaintances I enjoy being around at work but I worry they are just distractions and tend to remain solitary when ever possible. Other people's happiness upsets me, not because I want them to be miserable like me but rather because I don't know how they do it. As I'm writing this I am no longer as down as I was when but like I said acknowledging it pulls me back down. Thank you for listening.

[Crazy Hitch]

Only one important question you need to answer here.

"Will it serve your mental health well, in the long run, if you maintain this friendship?"

If the answer is yes.

Well. You have your answer right there.

I am glad that your friend makes you happy.

[footnote: you may be the very person who allows this person to relax and show her true colours around you because you are a person who does not judge; unlike your other friends who seem to have judged her before getting to know or bother to care the real reason why she puts up this front so that other's can't see the pain that has caused her to do this]

[Yourself]

Thank you i didnt think about but like that.