[90confused]

I am 24 year old final year medical student. I am preparing for my surgery exams that are due in next month. So im going to libraries to study all day. I also do part time job so i can use the money for the things i need eveb though i live with my parents we are nit that financially stable. Last night when i was coming back from a lib i got mugged. A guy in bike took off with my purse that had my wallet some money but most importantly my books and notes. i have my exams due next month and i got robbed so i dont have any money to buy books for myself, my father knows this and he still did not offer to help at all. I never ask for anything from him because he always refuses anc i understand considering the financial status of our family but now that im in need he neither said he would help.me nor he said he wouldnt. All he did was scream and shout anc lashed out at me for trivial details wheb i told him what happened. He didnt ask me if i was okay if i was hurt. I dont need your money but i do need some care..some concern..all he knows to do is to scream and ahout at my mother for stupid things..i feel like slapping him i feel like im hating him..even though i dont hes my father i love him..andi should and i feel so bad to eveb think this way abt him for someone who has provided for out family for so long but he always does the same thing calls me cuss words brings me down shouts at me and my mom..he has no respect no care and even when i tell him i got robbed all i could gwt from my fatger was the banter that its all my fault. And theb he says i want you to be strong i want you to be a fighter. I understand that and im very strong but i do need to sometimes feel like i can rely on him when im emotionally wounded and not being lashed at.
I always feel so down aroynd him i dont feel like talking to him now.
My dad always wanted a son and he got 4 daughters im the second one..and he never abandoned us physically gave us good education and food but at times he would remind us indirectly the "differences"between a son and a daughter.
I just wanted some support from him and i realised that i cant eveb expect that eveb though hes alive..probably this ignorant father daughter relationship that i have the root cause of my depression anxiety my inability to trust people my reduced self esteem and self worth and my anger..help me out please

[healingme4me]

Did you report this to the authorities? Can your school or professors help, considering the circumstances?

Sounds like it was a frightful experience.

[Keyslost]

Sorry to hear that confused. I was told I wouldn't make it b/c I wasn't smart enough by my dad. And made fun of for the survival things I had to do to live with my mom. I know it's tough living with someone like that. Both my parents talk crap about each other and give the "I hope you don't turn into your father/mother" spiel. That last sentence I know all too well. Msg me if you need to vent I may do it back Other than that the only thing I find as relief is knowing I don't live with him anymore and will hopefully move out of my mom's relatively soon. I'm sorry about the financial issue too I know it's tough when people assume you're in school so you should support yourself + everything else + home issues. Keep your head high and keep moving Survival first then move out and heal