I am hopeless

Growing up i didnt have friends at all....and everyone made fun of me...i was continually with adults even from birth..not many children my age...and for alot of the time my grandmother watched me....in addition with my parents abuse towards me and the isolation i have become unable to handle...people...in general. My boyfriend is the only one i can....relate to ....otherwise i am hopeless....i am one of those people who laughs when its not supposed to be funny...i tell the same joke over and over again thinking maybe i can get someone to laugh....or i try to relate and talk to people..but in the end i just look stupid and they roll their eyes at me and walk away....it happened last night...i was joking around with my boss....and after what i thought turned out well..she turned around and asked my boyfriend..who works with me....and our boss is his aunt...she asked him what was wrong with me..that i kept making the same joke....i dont know how to talk to people...or handle people....or even be near people....i try so hard..and i always screw up....i DO try....i try to make friends...i TRY to "let loose" but all i want now is just to go to work come home eat sleep and watch tv and read a book or two...when i moved with my boyfriend i never realized how isolated my parents made me....i was never allowed down stairs to watch tv with the family...i was never allowed to hang out outside with the family and friends...and when family got together i was to do all the dishes and clean up and wait on people....i didnt talk to anyone unless spoken too....and believe me that wasnt often....i would just sit upstairs in a room and watch tv..from 3 pm to the next morning..sometimes i didnt even see my own sister for two to three days....because she would be downstairs with my parents or at a friends...even at dinner time..i wasnt allowed to have enjoyable family time....this was the time for my mother and father to tell me what i need to do differently...and if they were fighting with themselves they would drag me into it...so i was by myself pretty much my whole life....now i dont know how to handle conversations...and when someone wants to talk to me and they come over...i try hard but i trip up because i start to....loose myself....i tend to...i wouldnt call it day dream but i would loose time and not remember anything....and that doesnt help.....so i dont know...i am hopeless with people...sometimes i just wish i could find a job that would not let me deal with people .....or deal with alot of people....like that would happen...sorry for my rant....

inny you talk to us ok, we love you. sorry you're feeling so down, dont let people get you down ok? please dont be so hardon yourself. go to assertiveness classes, join a reading or book club, anything where your social skills will come into there own.

thinking of you kerry xoxoxoxoxps dont ever say you are hopeless, you are not - you help many people in here with your good advice.

Hello I am --

Are you in school? Perhaps you could take a basic Interpersonal Communication or Communication survey course. Even if you are not, you can take such a course at a local community college, where it will be very inexpensive. I used a lot of group activities to help students meet others, while at the same time the class teaches students various communication strategies and how to use them to analyze and improve their own communication effectiveness. Don't despair. Things can get better.

Baby,
You are not hopeless. Listen to me, I have felt the same way you do all of the time. People were so mean to me. Sometimes they still are. I grew up extremely shy, and to this day I wonder if it was some form of Autism. Aspergers Syndrome is a very mild form of autism that is most apparent in social functioning. I don't think I have it, and I'm not suggesting you have it, but it helped me to read about it because I could relate to the social awkwardness and the negative perception of others.
What really, really helped me is realizing something so simple and yet so true. I may not be socially adept, but I am a human being, worthy of dignity,the respect that I earn, common courtesy, and yes, compassion and forgiveness. This is not negotiable or disputable, period. Anyone who does not want to give me these things does not deserve them him/herself, and I dismiss them as unworthy of the confusion, pain, anxiety, sorrow, self-consciousnness, embarrassment, insecurity, self-hatred, etc., etc. I don't deserve any of the above inflicted upon me for no good reason and neither do you.
Finally, it was VERY unprofessional of your boss to act that way. So, who is this rude, arrogant, mean-spirited snob to judge you? Heck, I'd much rather work for you than your boss any day!
Buck up. You are more likable than you think!

inny u are great
u dont do any of that with me
and we talk heaps
and yes so this is typing
but its still a convo
ur not the only one who has trouble in social situations
many do
u need to build up skills gradually
maybe u can talk to ur bf about it
and just say u have trouble talkin with ppl
whether its cos u dont know what to say
or how to stand
where to look
he can help u
or go back to T
find another one closer
that can take on clients
and get them to help u
u can learn skills
these things we are not born with
ur parents did not teach them to u
but that doesnt mean its too late to learn
ITS NEVER TOO LATE
and u are so special and so wonderful
so strong
i love ya inny

*theme song* playin all day long

(((((((INNY))))))))))
Listen to Bronee! Hope you feel better

So sorry, Inny -- I started my last post as addressed to the subject line of your post, instead of to you.

Sorry you are going through this. I have gone through similar things. Hope things get better. I wish everyones depression would go away.

Hi Inny,
I think your telling the same joke over and over again is funny. You have to laugh about it-that is funny. I think if you learn to laugh at yourself-even what may hurt you, it will help you to heal. When you don't take yourself too seriously-others respond favorably. That's why a lot of comics use self depreciating humor. It works wonders.
I've had the hardest time trying to say my R's. No matter how much I practice and work on it, to this day I still slip every once in awhile and people will make fun of me. They'd make elmer fudd jokes and talk like a little kid in front of me and I use to hate people because of it-I use to hate myself even more so because of it. But why? Because I cannot pronounce a sound cowectly?- Because as a child-nobody ever took the time to teach me how? I'm going to beat MYself up for that? Hell no! I've leawned to laugh at myself because it is twuly funny. It's not necessarily a bad thing. People will wemember me because of it. It's my own little quirk. Everyone has a quirk. EVERYONE! You have quirks too. It's all a matter of how we handle them and how we grant ourselves forgiveness and make it apart of who we are instead of fighting it and frustrating ourselves then hating ourselves. WHY?
((((((((((((((Inny))))))))))))))))))))) Just the way you awe!

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