This post is meant more so to vent than anything although anybody who cares enough to reply shall be appreciated.

I'm so pissed off at my relatives right now. I am trying to sell some extra PC parts, a smartphone, and a couple of laptops online to scavenge money that I need. I've been trying to make money online because I have a difficult time holding a regular job that involves dealing with a lot of clients/customers (which is 98% of regular jobs) due to my bipolar and issues dealing with people, and despite having technical knowledge, I can't get a job in the IT field due to a lack of experience and certifications (which cost money that I don't have) and I freak out during job interviews because I'm afraid of being judged by them or showing weakness and being perceived as incompetent.

Anyways, rather than even bother with the cluster**** of a system that is job hunting and rather than struggling at a minimum wage job working for mere pennies, I decided to try to start an online business reselling goods online. I had a great time with it earlier this year and was making $4k+ per month off dropshipping on eBay until the assholes decided to suspend my account because I tried to withdraw $2700 at one time and posted 500 items at once so they thought I was trying to scam them or something. Since then I've been broke and struggling to get by trying to work odd jobs while I build up stealth eBay accounts under fake information (which is legal BTW) and using an LLC to verify them if they want their identity verified but I always get impatient and reckless because I don't have the patience to build them past the initial 90 day new period where the accounts are a high risk and I don't have the patience to build a web store and get it ranked in the top 3 on Google simply because I'm struggling financially and I can't handle it anymore. If I were in a better position, I would work on them but I have too much going on.

So here I am scavenging for money to get caught up on my finances and to hopefully have enough left over to purchase an eBay account that's already aged and past the 90 day period so I can jump back in and make the money that I used to make while learning from my mistakes so I don't get the account blocked again and while trying to sell my stuff on Reddit and Tom's Hardware's classified forums, they say that I should use PayPal because I'm new, yet I don't want to use a stealth account because the fear of losing both my money and my stuff over their retarded security measures so I try to ask a relative to make an account under his name and verify it so I can receive my money.

He wouldn't do it. His reasoning? He might die at work and the bank would seize my money because of all of his debt. Like WTF? How retarded of a ****ing excuse can you give? I have a hard enough time trusting people as it is so if I trust you with something major like this, one should consider it a rare honor and not turn me down.

I swear my family is so stupid that I'm ashamed of them. I'm seriously consider telling them all to screw off, moving out of state, and getting a legal name change so they can't find me.

I'm sick of everything. I just want to sell my stuff and I want to finally get financially stable without having to struggle due to my mental health issues.

[kaliope]

i am sorry you are struggling.

[Purple Heart]

Hi

You seem quite intelligent from how you express yourself in writing. It appears that there has been times in the past where your family have let you down? Sometimes friends love us more than family. Do you have friends? I hope you can get your online business up and running again. All the best.

PH

Yes. Most of my family barely know me and what few family that does seems to not be able to understand me.

This is the side effect of having a narcissist and pathological liar as a mother; her lies turned most of my family against me.

I want a fresh start at life more than anything.