[Macd123]

I still cringe when people don't give me their complete attention.
I think when someone does pay attention we are in a relationship,
I get upset when somebody is telling me how well things are going.
I think too much about the long lonely road I've been on.
I'm afraid of ever coming off my medication.
I sink below the earth when others talk about their significant others.
I'm envious of people even in bad relationships.
I know I will die alone.
I know that I''m just pretending everything is okay.
I know I'm just pretending I'm just like everyone else.
I see images of people in my mind and think we are somehow involved.
I know life is a random trail of abandonment followed by death.
I can't seem to find a place I want to go back to in my life.
I don't understand love.
Sometimes my skin feels electric.
I know I have to make things up just to seem normal.
I fall in love with the slightest smile.
I cling to anyone with a kind word.
Sometimes I feel like a slug that's just had salt poured on it.
I'm insightful but I wish I was stupid.
The traffic gets deafening when I'm alone.

Thinking of you xo

[Macd123]

Thanks and peace.