Hey there,

I think I'm overly scared of other people getting violent when they get angry.. I'd like to let people be angry if that's how they really feel as I do think anger is just like any other emotion and shouldn't have to be suppressed. But I'm dead scared people will take their anger out on me

I'm not scared they'll be physically violent so much as emotionally as I feel that'd be harder to spot or 'prove'.. Or maybe it's because I've learned I should just 'take' it I feel I see it everywhere I look, even couples who say they love each other say really nasty things to each other and then say they're 'ONLY teasing'.. And if someone teases you or laughs at you and you get upset, then you're 'too sensitive'. I HATE it! Why can't people just be NICE to each other..

Anyway, I wonder how I can get it into my head that not EVERYONE is crazy.. Not everyone is going to hurt me even if they do get angry.

At the moment, I'm on sick leave for Irritable Bowel Syndrome and social phobia, but I've only got two months of it left. I already HATE the idea of being basically forced to either go to school or get a job without being able to control one bit who I end up having to spend my days with..

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

Why can't people just be NICE to each other. - Why indeed? But they never have and they never will, unfortunately people and the world are not made like that. Theya re probably wrong and you are probably right. Maybe you could be curious about them rather and fearful?

forced to either go to school or get a job - What do you want to do?

without being able to control one bit who I end up having to spend my days with. - is that quite true? You can choose your friends at school and you can change jobs.

Thank you for challenging my beliefs

I believe nasty people are made rather than born, but my interest in them doesn't extend further than 'are they willing to change or not'.. If not, I think I should be allowed to stay clear of them, but that's not possible in a working environment..

Unless, as you said, I changed jobs.. In the current climate, though, I feel I'd be lucky to land just one job, let alone be able to try out many..

As for school, my experience is that I made friends with nice people who wouldn't protect me from the bullies, however.. I'd like to think things'd be different with adults but have come to notice that being a b*head has nothing to do with age..

What do I want to do.. You know, I'd just like to become me, who I was meant to be! And for that, I need people who'll be on my side.. But work/school isn't about me, is it. I suppose I'm just going to have to get over myself