[marvelousness]

I don't know what it is but all my friends don't seem to care that much about me. I'm writing this tonight because i'm really really upset. My friend found a bunch of new friends that he hangs out with and I feel like he's forgetting about me and wants to leave. He never asks me to hang out with him anymore and he's always with his other friends. I guess we hung out because I was his only option since we're both in college and had trouble making new friends but now that he's found other people, he doesn't like me anymore. We were going to go to a party tonight but he said he didn't want to have to get up early and drive me back to school for a class and I feel like if it was anyone else, he would have done it. He just never seems like he wants me anywhere and I've been sitting in my room having a breakdown for like 4 hours. I shouldn't be surprised though, since everyone else seems to leave to and I have so much trouble making new friends and talking to people. I feel like I'm just following him and his friends around all the the time and they don't really want me there. He's happy without me and I doubt we're going to remain friends. he'll probably find a girlfriend and spend all his time with her and his friends and I'll be alone again and I don't think I can handle that. I miss it being just us.

[Curry]

I am not very good at making friends either. I find that joining a club or group when I want to meet more people is a good fall back. Get-together are organized, everyone is welcome, and there is no pressure to be someone you are not. There are actually quite a few of us gentle people out here.

[WifeofBPD]

First, as a momma, every instinct in me is chomping at the bit to tell you to stop with the "flashing forward" and imagining what may or may not happen. The future is yet unwritten and the only future you should be focusing on is yours. While it is hard to to do, let go of that sense of control. People come into our lives for a reason and despite sounding like rhetoric, it's true. Instead of focusing on who you are without this friend and how wonderful his life must be, think about how to go out there and make new friends. Curry is right... somewhere where there is no pressure, just people hanging out.

While I don't typically have trouble making friends, I don't have trouble losing them either. I can't count the number of people that have woven in and out of my life over the years! It used to bug me until I finally got it through my thick skull that I may have a lot of acquaintances, but very few people I choose to call friends. In fact, I have maybe....3... I'm married to one and the other two live two states away from me. It is what it is. But, I can tell you this from experience...its best to have a small circle of true friends...those that you can trust to have your back, than a bunch of ones just along til something better comes up.

Big hugs!!! All will be ok!

~Seanachai~