[sajaco]

I'm currently dating a guy that I really do love but all my mental problems decided to make a hard hitting appearance again this week. I've been crying everyday because I don't know if I can even feel emotions besides the ones where I feel upset all the time. I feel like I'm going to vomit all the time, I'm always crying, & I can't stop shaking. I don't know what's wrong with me, nothing bad has happened in my life that would shake me up this much. I really enjoy this guys company, & I would do whatever it took to stay with him. My mind keeps going through the thought process of breaking up with him. I'm very happy in this relationship and he means so much to me but I can't stop thinking about it because it just keeps popping into my head. I do not have medical help, I should seek a professional but I just am terrified of telling my parents. I really have no clue what to do and I'm just so terrified that I can't breathe normally anymore or go a day without breaking down. It feels like my mind is against me because every time I'm happy it always has to go through a cycle of thoughts where it takes the things I love away most all due to my own faults.