[LiteraryLark]

I've been friends with this girl since I was 12. She was my neighbor and we grew up together. Freshman year we dated for a couple weeks but she called it off and it broke my heart. But after not speaking to each other for a few months we apologized and made up and we were close again.

Present time we'd fight off and on but still close. Within the past couple years I realized how negative of a person she was. She'd whine and complain and b!tch on facebook about everything wrong in her life, and when we'd hang out she'd complain that her boyfriend thinks she's too negative. Then she started being negative on my posts and I deleted her. For the past couple months I've really missed her. I sent her a note and flowers, and then pumpkin cupcakes I made for Thanksgiving with no reply. Today, I texted her that I missed her and I didn't understand why she was mad at me. She told me that I was too much to handle and that she thought I was in love with her.

I'm a very loyal person and I went out of my way to include her and cheer her up when she was feeling down.

I replied with a scathing response about how negative she was and that if she thinks after all this time I was in love with her that a friendship would be impossible.

It really bums me out but I think it is for the best. She is such a negative person that it drains me, and that I think it's time I moved on to friends who include me and be loyal to me and make me happy when I'm feeling down. I've found a really good friend in this guy Travis. He's gay and we have a bit of a sexual history, but he includes me in the little get togethers he throws and when I'm really depressed he lets me come over to his house and stay the night and make me feel better. He listens to me when I need to vent, and he invited me to go to a cabin in Tahoe to celebrate the New Year's, and when he feels down I go to him and make him feel better. He's a good friend and it made me realize just now that he is a true loyal friend.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

It sounds like a one sided friendship with this girl. If she's always negative and brings you down, you don't need her. She's probably taking advantage of your kindness and not very dependable herself. She may have some type of personality disorder. You don't need it. You need friends like Travis.

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