[annabellacat]

Last May,I had several things happen that felt like a violation of privacy,things that shocked me. Some little,some big. One of the things that happened,one of the "small" things,was that someone tried to hack my instagram. It's so stupid. Who would try to do that? Like,what could they even find or do with it? It's so pointless. But,it scared me and I started putting it on private sometimes and it's one of the things that made me cautious. I did entertain the idea that it could be a random person as well,but with all the other odd things going on at the time,there was a list of people who crossed my mind.I am keeping this vague because it's a lot of drama but

suspect 1-a woman who was not supposed to even know much about me,let alone my last name,yet somehow found me on there and followed me as if to show me her last name,that she is married. She quickly unfollowed me. And,her relationship with her guy ended after that because he told her that's the one thing that would make it for him,and would cross the line.This happened shortly before the instagram hack attempt.

suspect 2-a guy i dated who was kind of stalkerish and had a bit of a creepy vibe. we didn't last long as he didn't fit my requirements of what i want but he always seemed to know a lot about me and had weird timing with things. He had reason to be someone who would want to get back at me,and knows a lot about techie things. He was the number one suspect at the time that i've always just assumed it was. The only thing that made me think it's not,is that it's just too stupid of a thing to do,and he's smarter then that.

suspect 3- another guy i dated around the time who seemed to have anger issues and seemed to hate me. Don't think it was him,he doesn't seem the type. But,he did have anger issues and hated me.

suspect 4-a girl who my friend started dating around this time. her daughter randomly ended up on my porch around the time and it scared the hell out of me for personal reasons and also because I never have visitors ever at my house except my mom or dad. It's a secluded type porch and happened right after another scary incident so it really put me on edge. I had wondered if it was the girl trying to find out more info about me and getting her daughter to come visit knowing full well my roommate wasn't there but to try and get info about me. He later got very mad at her and told her to never do that and she acted like she was very sorry and knew she had a bad feeling about it and was very sorry. She also apologized to me months later in person when i met her.On a logical level,i feel it'd be very likely this person. However,she's not a very smart person and i don't know i see the point in trying to go into my page.

suspect 5-i had someone try to break into my apartment around this time and wondered if it was the person who tried to do that.

suspect 6-the guy i wrote my recent posts about that i just recently had over at my place. he popped into my mind back then,too. at that point we had date one and then he was rushing to try and see me again but i told him not yet because we had JUST seen each other. This is the same issue that started this week. I see him. He rushes to see me again after asap,then punishes me after when i don't want to. When he popped in my mind last year when this happened,i actually even told him about it that someone tried to hack my instagram and he just said that's weird and i told him i thought it was suspect 2. I didn't think it'd be him because he hadn't really shown any anger issues and seemed very normal to me,just also very clingy. But,this was during the time where he was mad at me because we just had a date and he wanted to hurry up and see me again. He actually disappeared for about 3 weeks finally once he seen i wasn't going to give into his time deadline. It hurt me back then that he just basically disappeared and he did get more distant when he reappeared as if he was being cautious we don't get into fights.

I know it's a long time ago,and it's just an instagram thing,but back then this was the start of my life getting really rough in terms of emotionally and me feeling a lack of security. I just don't see why anyone would want to hack an instagram. Of all the social medias's that one confuses me the most. Suspect 6 is also the most instagram active out of all the social media's i use and does follow me on there. I did follow him,but unfollowed him during the summer after i thought he was a jerk and i lost all interest. I had posted travel pics on this social media too so had wondered if that instilled jealousy because i went on this trip with my friend and so these girls may have checked up on me or the person who tried to break in knew i was out of town,i am not sure. They were all pictures of just me or scenic pics and the females knew the guy was with me so maybe wanted to check up on things. I checked my emails to see when this happened though,and it's it's more post my trip and the person trying to break in and is right smack before suspect 6 went out of town and was very mad at me and gave me the silent treatment. It was one of the last things i said to him before he got distant on me. The other things are more slightly spaced apart apart.

I had a small thing happen that made me paranoid tonight that's why this came back to me. Honestly,this stuff has never completely left my mind simply because a lot of things happened around this time and it was the start of a hard phase in life. My mind does tend to drift towards the paranoid side. After these things happened,i started taking measures to make things more private.

Who does it seem most likely would've tried to hack the instagram?

[nushi]

Hey anabellacat

To tell you the truth, anabella, the whole thing seems like so insignificant that, yes anabella, like you said yourself without realizing that this is the real problem, this seems like indeed paranoia

I know this is something very hard But try to think from far away... imagine yourself being a little beautiful bird, that you fly away from your house, into the wide blue sky, & look at youself from above in the sky with a bird's eye-view... now look again into this instagram problem... can you see how small & insignificant it is?! & how you're wasting a lot of your energy, thinking, & time in being worried about this?!

The thing that you said most enlightening & worrying to me in your post, is that this instagram hacking trial problem has been about the start of a tough phase in your life... & that's what worried me the most in your post... Because this tough times, might not have been other than the cause of your paranoia anxiety, & your excess worrying about who did what to break into my privacy or hurt me!

But it's ok, I don't want you to feel lonely or bad about this... I have a similar issue BTW, though from a different perspective. I also worry excessively about who did what to hurt me, or to try to piss me off, & calculating my options of how to get back at them in an equal way. Though it's a problem of my OCD & delusions of persecution. It not just wastes a huge amount of my energy & time in insignificant things, but also ruins all normal relationships that I try to have with people! The things are so insignificant that though at the time when they happen, I make huge problems about, now I can't even remember any example of them to mention!

But it helps to shed light on a newer perception of your issue... that rather than wasting a lot of your energy feeling anxious about them, try to think that this is a problem of paranoia, that my mind is trying to trick me into wasting my time & energy into worrying about insignificant things, & I might try instead to occupy myself with other things that would exhaust my thinking & energy into more enjoyable exercises, that no energy would be left in me to worry for those minor things

[annabellacat]

Originally Posted by nushi

Hey anabellacat

To tell you the truth, anabella, the whole thing seems like so insignificant that, yes anabella, like you said yourself without realizing that this is the real problem, this seems like indeed paranoia

I know this is something very hard But try to think from far away... imagine yourself being a little beautiful bird, that you fly away from your house, into the wide blue sky, & look at youself from above in the sky with a bird's eye-view... now look again into this instagram problem... can you see how small & insignificant it is?! & how you're wasting a lot of your energy, thinking, & time in being worried about this?!

The thing that you said most enlightening & worrying to me in your post, is that this instagram hacking trial problem has been about the start of a tough phase in your life... & that's what worried me the most in your post... Because this tough times, might not have been other than the cause of your paranoia anxiety, & your excess worrying about who did what to break into my privacy or hurt me!

But it's ok, I don't want you to feel lonely or bad about this... I have a similar issue BTW, though from a different perspective. I also worry excessively about who did what to hurt me, or to try to piss me off, & calculating my options of how to get back at them in an equal way. Though it's a problem of my OCD & delusions of persecution. It not just wastes a huge amount of my energy & time in insignificant things, but also ruins all normal relationships that I try to have with people! The things are so insignificant that though at the time when they happen, I make huge problems about, now I can't even remember any example of them to mention!

But it helps to shed light on a newer perception of your issue... that rather than wasting a lot of your energy feeling anxious about them, try to think that this is a problem of paranoia, that my mind is trying to trick me into wasting my time & energy into worrying about insignificant things, & I might try instead to occupy myself with other things that would exhaust my thinking & energy into more enjoyable exercises, that no energy would be left in me to worry for those minor things

My OCD has caused some issues before with others and that phase was the beginning of me having panic attacks that i just recently overcame. I still find myself getting paranoid at times but I need to try and not indulge it. Thanks for the supportive comments. It's not easy being this way. I realized the thing earlier was nothing and have done some positive things after that and feel more empowered again. It is very time wasting having excessive worry,i agree!

I really want to be a relaxed person with an energy others enjoy being around. That's what i'm working on more and more. Luckily,i did some positive things tonight and have more clarity again and feel back to myself. It takes work to keep changing the negative and fear thoughts into positive and empowering.