[black-roses]

I woke up still feeling sick and so I didn't go to school had my medication and sprayed myself with magnesium oil, had my concentration powder which is herbs from the happy high herbs with maple syrup so it was actually pleasant for a change. I have been feeling a lot better since drinking the herbs they are stuff the government hides because it is healthy and lets face it they don't make money of healthy things big pharma only wants to prescribe antidepressants that can cause you to lactate from your breasts. Well, that's to bad because I enjoyed my healthy herbs that didn't harm anyone and wasn't weed it was damiana it's crazy just in my drinking style of herbal teas I've already transformed my mood so much. I feel like a normal human being who can concentrate don't get me wrong I still took my antidepressants and my adhd pills but this new healthy addition to this family makes things a lot better. If I could honestly spend my money on herbs and it improves me I will keep on doing it because I think I might actually get over this cold faster. I really want to be over it because I want to take my mother to the schools lunch at my college because I love involving her in my dreams and it's what we all want to bond better what the people we care about the most. So this is the most important thing to me that she knows exactly what I am doing and what my dreams and aspirations are. What is the point of having a mother and a father if it's not to show them what you love doing. After all she is always worrying and upset when she sees me cry why can't she see something that makes me happy and is good for me? This my gift to her and I want her there but she's been like if you haven't gone to school for a week I am not going to the lunch tomorrow but I really want her to go it well make me feel comfortable and at home if she did. Maybe I would feel less like a failure makes mistakes with my life...