[black-roses]

I feel absolutely sad in my heart I haven't talked to my friend for a year after I argued with him and I miss him so badly I feel like I need him even though i don't necessarily want to need or love anyone. I know deep down it is not worth loving or caring for no man because they can't return that love they are completely incapable of staying in my life. Deep down I know it's better to keep them a distance because the moment I start loving the close up and leave. That's just how men are I can't and won't love him. Also I am sad I will have to leave my family in Madeira the only family that cares and loves me as I truly am. The only ones who care about my well-being even though I act like I don't care, the only ones that I know would never abandon me. I really love my cousin as well little two year old Leonor that pops up and squeals when she sees me. It is so heartbreaking to leave this heaven this place is home this is my family I can't just walk away and abandon my own. Let them be broken because I am far away but I live in Australia my mother migrated there. I have to go back to my cold father the people that have no heart from my father's side. I hate that I am close to all that nasty evil side of the family and anyway from the good hearted ones. I hate them so much I will never like them after the sick and twisted things my mother had to go through. I will always want them to burn in hell.

Therapy?

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[~Christina]

You can still have a relationship with someone and it not be the end to a relationship with your family.

As always advised Therapy could be very valuable for you. DBT worksheets can be found online at no cost.

Good luck

[black-roses]

Okay I'll look

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