[TishaBuv]

I posted my heart out on here. It was noticeable to my family while we were all sitting around the house, all on our own separate electronics yet in the same room watching TV and not communicating with each other (dontcha love America?). I had to be honest when asked what I was doing. Knowing my husband, i didn't think he'd have any interest at all in what I was doing.

But when he realized I was writing about him, and I said he could read it in hope it might help him understand our problem better, he decided to go look. The things I wrote were 90% of what I had told him myself anyway. What have I got to lose?

But instead of just reading, he opened an account and started antagonizing me. Gaslighting me just like he does in our relationship and pretending he's so innocent. He told me he closed the account and wouldn't go back on here, but he still read my posts and antagonized me by posting 'hugs' to show me he was there.

So that does it for me here on PC . I screwed myself over with my honesty. Word to the wise: don't tell anyone you post on here...silly me

Eh, I figure the truth will set me free. But from here on out, I don't feel safe posting anything because my tormentor is watching me...very creepy!

Staying away from here is going to be so hard. It's my only support group. Now I feel so lonely.

Maybe I'll go find something new in my town or back to a private therapist. I am so scared and alone and now further isolated.

I've loved talking to all of you all over the world!

[Always Hurting]

Why don't you just ask for this account to be closed and open another one with a different name? Don't tell anyone your name. You deserve to have an outlet and a place to go for help.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by TishaBuv

I had to be honest when asked what I was doing.

Actually, you didn't.

When you reveal to anyone that you've been portraying them in a negative light on-line, it's not going to be well-received.

It's too bad you're out of something that you found supportive. Let some time pass and join again with a new account . . . after your husband has gotten tired of visiting PC.

Even in your own livingroom you have a right to some privacy. What you discuss here is not anyone's business outside of PC. It sounds like you hoped that seeing your threads would influence your husband in a positive way. I've seen other posters hope the same thing. It never does seem to work out that way.

[Moogieotter]

Will miss you.

[leomama]

Why not open a different account and then privately message your friends as to your new identity ? Both my mother and my ex would be angry if they knew I posted about them here so I try to post only what I've said out loud or would say to their face, still it feels risky even under the cloak of anonymity. I would still encourage you to write down your friends names, create a new account, then message all your friends to let them know your new identity.

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Originally Posted by leomama

Why not open a different account and then privately message your friends as to your new identity ? Both my mother and my ex would be angry if they knew I posted about them here so I try to post only what I've said out loud or would say to their face, still it feels risky even under the cloak of anonymity. I would still encourage you to write down your friends names, create a new account, then message all your friends to let them know your new identity.

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This is a great idea! Keep in touch, ok?

[~Christina]

Open a new account. You do not have to share everything, posting here is in a way like seeing a T... You deserve privacy.

I'd hate to see you go , you need a place you can unload at.

(((( hugs))))

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[Artchic528]

I don't know exactly how to put this in any other way than what it is. He's being resentful and harassing and belittling you. Why do you keep allowing yourself to suffer like this? It breaks my heart to see someone willingly put themselves through hell. I don't know what else to tell you but to cut your losses and just end the relationship. I'm sorry you're suffering, but you can end it all by just leaving him.

[divine1966]

He is something else. Open a new account. It's not his business really. Don't leave

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[ComfortablyNumb5]

No don't go! You're such a huge contribution to our forum. I'm sorry your hubby did that to you. I'm honest with my bf too and he knows I post here but he'd never make an account and harass me. Im very sorry.

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[matt07]

@TishaBuv good luck.

(Does your username Express how you feel everyday? )

[TishaBuv]

We talked tonight and I asked him why he showed he read my posts, pressing the 'hugs' button. He said he didn't know he did that. It was an accident! He has an answer like that for everything that leaves me scratching my head, and wondering if I'm crazy.

I have to interrogate him like a lawyer, and finally he said he doesn't know why he continues to be a Jeckyl and Hyde. So when he's faced with the tough questions, he just says he doesn't know, so that we can never get to the bottom of it and solve our problem.

So now we have an appt with a new therapist. I said I'd go with him, but he has to figure out why he is the way he is, and he can't say he doesn't know anymore.

Meanwhile, I keep moving all my stuff out of our house, one car load at a time.

He says he won't read my posts anymore, but I'll assume that he will.

I don't really feel trust and safe with him any more. If he is innocently just pathetic, we are the saddest, most unfortunate couple of losers ever.