[black-roses]

My heart is extremely cold honestly I am just over it. Over wanting to people to leave me alone over hating everything over my anger at guys but it's the only thing that seems to full me moving forward. Somehow that anger at being treated badly has made me demand that I find what I truly deserve and how I deserve to be treated. This time I won't compromise to something that is my less then my worth. Somehow now I am now finally understanding my anger towards men I deserved better I always did and somewhere within my anger I knew that because if I really thought I deserved to be treated like **** I wouldn't be angry I'd be happy. That's how I know. The difference between old Vanessa and the knew one I know I deserve so much better than how I was treated and this time I will not back down until I get what I want. The thing though is I don't want to be angry any more I want to walk away from the things that I don't deserve and focus on the things I do. I don't want to feel this seething anger anymore.