He called, texted me...

Yep, yesterday, the day after I blew up at him, he calls (no voicemail), and texted me. The text was basically, at least in my opinion, an attempt to defend himself. Oh. I have no idea what he called me for because I simply clicked him off.
Now a friend feels he's trying to make his way back in. I don't know. But if he is, well while I know this happens, I never heard of it happening so soon. I mean, the day after (something like that)?
But here's the question: do I still love him? You better believe I do! Nothing has changed in that department. NOTHING! Yes, I went off on him. I sure did! And I wasn't shy about it too. Left him voicemails. The works. I told him that I AM NOT THE ONE HE PLAYS WITH! Definitely NOT the one! That I thought he knew that already! That I will protect my heart! That I have no patience WHATSOEVER for men who even THINK they will treat me less than I expect, etc.
Then I called his crazy controlling, manipulative, narcissistic momma and let her have it too! I guess I finally had enough.
Sometimes you get to a point where you can't take it anymore. And I reached that point.
But now I'm calmer (just a little), so we'll see what happens. If anything. And if nothing does happen well guess what? There is no doubt that he will never meet another ME! LOL. For sure. Someone who will let him know EXACTLY how she feels about whatever. You see, I have absolutely no problem with that, especially with men. Been through too much not to.

Really? You're going to blow up your boyfriend, scream at his dying 92 year old mom, and "see what happens"? You have some serious issues going on that needs to be checked out.

Well I understand blowing up at him as he stopped communicating to you awhile ago but didn't officially end it. So I see how you might be upset with his lack of interest in you ( although blowing up is a bit much). But why bother 92 year old? How does she deserve it? How is that ok? Have you talked to your t about it? It seems really extreme

I have some issues going on? Really? Well you're right. And surely, you, me, and each one of us here.
I'm absolutely certain that none of us here have issues that are more or less serious than the other. Oh sure, some here may handle or deal with whatever those issues are, not one of us can say, in all truthfulness, that our own individual way is better than the next person.
And one thing I've found on forums is this: No one, and that includes yourself, share all that is to be shared. That means then, that each and every story here has a lot left to be told. And yep, that includes me. We only share what we want to share. It's not everything.
Its something like the news. They only print what they want to print, and that is not all there is to print. Why? Well, one reason is the journalists don't have the whole story simply because they weren't there.
So before you tell someone here that they have issues, you need to consider what news you have in your own reports that you are not sharing. I mean, it's okay to not share all. But if by chance you feel that what you read here is all, might you consider you're badly mistaken?
With that in mind, Im sure that what you yourself "print" isnt all. For why should you? We're here to share. Not to condemn. Isnt this why we're in therapy? And if by chance you are a therapist for things happen in everyone's life...you're not MY therapist.
Peace out.

I can tell youre spun, so im not going to offer any support if your response is to retaliate. I cant offer support if youre only willing to share one side of the story. I have absolutely no idea what is going on...but if you dont want support i can only suggest a diary or journal to invest in.

"That I have no patience WHATSOEVER for men who even THINK they will treat me less than I expect"

But how exactly have you been treating him

I am sure you're right and you've reached a point where you simply can't take any of this anymore.

Good luck moving forward.

Thank you Hitch, for your respect.
And as far as the way I've been treating him, I think that's a good question. The answer is I've treated him good. And you're right, I've reached a point where I "simply can't take any of this any longer." If by chance he has a change of heart, and shows it, perhaps I'll be willing to at least consider talking things over. For we cant turn feelings off like a faucet, at least Im unable to.
Again, thank you.

I heard raising houseplants can be calming.