[Mystery007]

I had this medical episode the other day, this is the second time its happened to me. Without going into detail I can explain that it was extremely physically painful and hurt till i went blind or almost passed out. This is just something physical that causes a lot of pain and nothing mental. I just remember getting ready to go for a walk and it came on and i fell on the dogs bed because i was in so much pain. My entire body was just twisting and turning with this excruciating pain. I remember yelling out her name because she was the only one home, just screaming at the top of my lungs, She reluctantly opened her door and came to me saying what. At this point i was still on the dogs bed just waiting for the pain to go away. I reached out my hand while yelling her name when she was standing over me. And she never reached back to touch my hand. In the middle of all that pain I just had small pops of thoughts on why she wasnt holding my hand. She just kinda of stood over me and watched me. EVEN THE DOG CAME OVER and was confused and trying to lick my face. In the middle of all this I told her i needed some water, she once again RELUCTANTLY walked to the kitchen and then came back and stood over me holding the water bottle. In the confusion and pain my mind was just trying to process why she would do something like that. I remember constantly calling her name and then reaching out my hand a couple of times in the whole episode. Then I made myself go upstairs so i could get on my bed. I had a half pulled sock on one of my feet and at this point i was almost going blind with pain and i kept tripping because i could not see where i was going. I got myself up to the bedroom and just tried to take of my partial sock and fell on my bed. In the middle of the whole thing downstairs i guess she had walked back upstairs. I heard her talking to my other on the phone and saying "She is having that thing again...im on my shift right now..come home", or something like that. My sister was doing an online shift, we are not talking sitting in an office or having someone else present in the house. But it was the way she said, very disconnected, lack of sympathy and very cold. Very reluctant and seemed like she had to deal with something she didn’t really have time for. I just think if this happened on the street even some stranger would at least come up to me and ask me what they could do…or at least I hope.

The pain finally passed for me, at this point I had sweated out half my body weight from my body reacting to the pain and I still wanted to get up and finish the rest of my day. So I got distracted from my thoughts because I spend the rest of the day doing things that I had to do. But in the back of my mind while driving etc, I just thought about that moment and how cold she was towards me. I remember this happening once before, when I had hurt my neck and she had to drive me to the doctor, she mad a turn and I screamed in pain. It was some type of injury where even the slighted change in direction would cause me to be in pain. I just remember her saying very coldly “I cannot drive if you do this!” There was absolutely NO SYMPATHY in her for me at that point.
I do believe that I love my sister more than she loves me. I would die for her, but I also believe that after our parents pass she wont be there for me. I am not married and have no children and neither is she. The way life is going I doubt either of us will get married or have kids. But I always felt that she didn’t care for me as much as I care for her and she wont be there when I get old. I also always believe that either I will die young or I will die alone. And I don’t know if there are any services that can check on you if you don’t have anyone otherwise I will just be laying there dead for weeks. My sister is in her 30s and I am late 30s.

I am not going to talk to her about how I feel because I know I wont get any response from her. I just don’t have anyone else to talk to so I posted on here. The whole thing made me upset but this is not a temporary thing so I just have to accept it and move on. It is what it is. I just don’t know how you can be so cold towards your own blood living in the same house.

[Sunflower123]

Has your sister always been this cold to you? Is she like this with other people? Is she emotionally distant most of the time? Her behavior was appalling. I'm sorry this happened to you.

[Open Eyes]

Just reading your post reminded me of when I experienced these attacks, I finally learned that it was endometriosis and I ended up having to have endoscopic surgery. These attacks don't stop either, mine got worse and they used to happen about 4 days after I had my period. They were VERY painful and I would be in horrible pain for about an hour until they finally subsided and I only had a warning of maybe a few minutes before the attack would get really bad.

So, with that in mind, please make it a point to see a doctor about these attacks, and often they won't be able to see the endometriosis unless they do the endoscopic explore as it isn't seen through an exam or even an ultrasound. It can spread to other parts of your body so it's important to see a doctor.

I can relate because my brother I don't think would really care at all if I was sick or dead. Other than he would be annoyed that society thinks he should help.