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I was let go from my job in July. I unfollowed most of my former colleagues on Facebook. I kept a few. One I kept because we are both involved in animal rescue, and she doesn't share anything work related that triggers me. Another is a professional reference for me, and he also doesn't share too much that bothers me. I think I may unfollow his feed though...

One of my work friends I was very close to. We were friends outside of work as well. When I was let go, I reached out to her about a month later to see if she wanted to hang out. She blew me off. She has ignored me for the past 5 months. When I see updates from her about my former employer, and I see pics of her with the backstabbing co-workers that she had personally complained to me about, I get really upset and triggered. I guess I feel betrayed by her. I felt fairly backstabbed by her as well because I asked her to participate in a 360 review on me and she used some personal information I shared with her against me in the review. This after I had been nothing but encouraging and supportive of her in her career. I helped her with her resume and helped her apply to positions that would promote her in her career, and I actually got her interviews for big promotions. Because I saw the potential in her to be a great leader.

I know I need to unfollow her. And I'm going to. I'm just really sad that I've had to make this decision. But it's been so long and she hasn't even reached out (and I have reached out to her, she blew me off).

It's this hard thing that I'm dealing with...the organization I worked for in town was so big, it's hard to avoid a lot of people who know them. It can make things a little difficult for me, as I was let go from working there. On the same token, most people in town absolutely know the BS that goes on there, and don't think any less of me because of it.

But it's weird because in the artistic community here, which I'm becoming really involved in, it's this whole segment I have to sort of avoid. However, again, on the other side of that, I've discovered that NONE of those colleagues do anything outside of their work at that one organization in the artistic community. I never see them at any other arts events in the community for any other organizations. They fancy themselves these great up and coming leaders, and they aren't doing anything in the community...they only care about this tunnel vision focus on their organization and they don't really see how it fits into the whole community. And that's to their detriment.

Anyways...I am sure eventually I will end up running into them somewhere, but when I do, I will hold my head high and dismiss them quickly. Because they don't deserve my time.

I get that everyone has to look out for themselves in the work place, but there is still an amount of being a person of integrity that is important.

You know, after they fired me, my assistant called me up a few weeks later asking for help with something, and, in my stupidity, I answered her questions. I should have told her to **** off and go ask the person who let me go. The person who wants revenge in me wishes I had said that. But the better person in me is glad I didn't, so I can point to that and say that I have integrity.

Even if they don't.

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