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I am really not sure where my relationship is headed with my wife. I do not want to get a divorce and I don't want to be separated. I have truly felt much better now then I ever have before. It is like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can breathe again. I know that she is still upset about the things that happened and I cannot fault her for that, but I have changed and things are going to be different for me again. My family is so important to me and I need to be with them. I have always been the type of person that is angry about the little stuff in life, but with CBT things have really changed for me. I just wish my wife could see exactly what has happened to me. If it goes the wrong way and she splits our marriage it is something that I will have to live with. I will be there for my kids and there for my wife should she need anything. I doubt that I will ever date again, because I put so much into this marriage that I am not sure that I could ever love another person as much as I do my wife. Wow that sounds really sappy, but it is true. My wife and I met in high school and dated on and off, after school we went our separate ways I got married and divorced. We got back together again and started our life together. The song we danced to at our wedding was After All by Peter Cetera and Cher. Basically it was
"After All the stops and starts,
We keep coming back to these two hearts,
Two angels who've been rescued from the fall.
After All that we've been through,
It all comes down to me and you.
I guess it's meant to be,
Forever you and me, After All. "

It was the perfect song for our lives. We spent so much time away the only thing that brought us back together was our love for one another. The love that we share is kind of scary, we both know what the other person is thinking. I feel like I really blew the whole thing with my anger and that is why I am looking for the help that I need. I just hope that my wife understands that I am getting the help that I need and that I have truly changed for the better. Sorry for being so long winded I just had to get some stuff off my chest. Thanks for listening.

[howohsocliche]

Awwwwwwwwwwe!

That's absurdly sweet. You're such a sweetheart, give her time to come around. Do your best to show that you've changed.

In defense of your wife, sometimes it's hard to let the past go. And sometimes there's only so much of a rough relationship that you can take. It's a lot of heartbreak, and sometimes people lose hope. I hope you can help her regain hope.