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I’m getting up the nerve to go rent an apartment for me and my son and move out of this haunted, hell house and husband.
I just need support. __________________ "And don't say it hasn't been a little slice of heaven, 'cause it hasn't!" . About Me--T |
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Hope you'll make it.
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When something is hard to do, we don't always succeed the first try. One failure doesn't mean you won't succeed this time. Try to learn from your past mistakes. Should you have planned better? Should you have spent less time with your H once you had made the decision to go? Try not to let guilt get the upper hand. Marriage vows mean something to us but on the otherhand your relationship is literally killing you and you have put you H and children before your own needs for a very, very long time. You have problems but they are impossible to rise above when your husband causes you so much stress.
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And just like that, I’m not. My friend said I better not leave the marital home for money reasons, she’s right. Then she cheered me up talking about taking her mother to see the new 50 Shades movie. Then she reminded me how I never leave him and always go through this hell, and how she wants us to come down and buy her lunch. So that’s the plan today, one big, dysfunctional family.
My h gets along with my gf’s. He can be one of the girls. Yet he’s straight. He even likes to take me shopping. If only I didn’t suffer this hellish struggle over the sex...he’’s perfect. __________________ "And don't say it hasn't been a little slice of heaven, 'cause it hasn't!" . About Me--T |
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I’m really never escaping this. My apologies to everyone here who I frustrate with my back/forth craziness.
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__________________ What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... |
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Sometimes I wonder if your problems with sex are caused by something other than your H. Of course you both have settled into a bad pattern--one that started years ago but it may go much deeper than that......
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But what can I do? I can’t stop having trauma reactions, panic attacks, depression, toxic relationship with my husband. I can’t bring myself to end the marriage. One psy said “This is never going to end.” __________________ "And don't say it hasn't been a little slice of heaven, 'cause it hasn't!" . About Me--T |
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So one psy said that 'this is never going to end.' You don't have to believe him. In fact, why not prove him wrong? Why not prove to yourself and to your kids that you can stand on your own two feet and not put up with abuse. Why not show your kids what it means to be strong? Your own child told you to stop it. Why not stop it? He/she doesn't want to hear it anymore. Don't ignore that. Why keep telling them what is healthy when you can show them? Actions speak louder than words.
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There has to be a way to treat it. I know that most therapists and psychologists haven't helped you but I say try another one. There must be a way to at least partially help you suffer less.....
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I’m so glad my friend called. She knew it’s Saturday morning and we’re battling ‘cause that’s the way it always is. She earned her sandwich and was much better than any psy ever was. She called herself the Marriage Whisperer.
She texted me,
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Tisha, don't you think that if you moved out, some of your problems would end?
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Do you think you have put yourself in this box because despite all the pain you inflict on each other you are afraid of hurting your H? Guilt is a very powerful motivator and way to manipulate someone....
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What can you do? Move out. Pursue your happiness and show them that self-care is important. Model healthy behavior for them. Show them they don't have to stay in a bad situation, that they have the ability to choose. You can stop your reactions, with therapy and hard work, and REMOVING yourself from the toxic relationship, you can change things for yourself. But you choose not to. Because the pain of changing seems greater to you than the pain of living with it for the rest of your life. By staying in the marriage, you re-traumatize yourself and can't get past any of your trauma symptoms...For you to move forward and heal, you will have to remove yourself from the trauma itself. I will be honest, I do not know how you look at the rest of your life in this situation, knowing how miserable you will be, and don't want to change it in a real way. I say that you don't want to change it because you choose to continue to suffer through it. Martyring yourself for god knows who. I know I am being a little tough, but it's only because I want to see a happy and healthy TishaBuv. __________________ What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... Last edited by seesaw; Feb 17, 2018 at 09:58 AM.. Reason: clarification |
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Why do you choose to stay? (I haven't read much of your other threads)
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