Wow, haven't made such thread in a LONG time. But a bit of a reflection makes me notice things which I have come to realize in time, and that realization rather empowers me.
I remember when I talked to some people about changing an academic course
One person said "Do whatever it is that is needed"; "There is time for everything"; "Take it easy". I take that as a reflection of the person themselves, about how they see life
The other person said "Don't give up so easily. Try to give it some more time"
I saw that as a reflection of the person needing me for some reason

Despite said person needing me - I left
I have to say - it was very very hard to do that, but here I am - moved away to wherever I wanted. I fought a hard battle just to get to where I want. But now, I have to actually get through the arena

The obstacle removed is allowing people to have an influence on the paths I take. No longer. Those people, especially the one who wanted me to "not give up so easily", saw me as a means to their own end. That person did not truly care about me. So with that, the abandonment is truly deserved

I know I write here allot. I wish I could be expressing myself beyond the forums. Although to think of it - what is so wrong with expressing one's self in forums?
Again, I wish I could venture into the world beyond so to speak, and be able to talk about whatever it is that I am talking right here.

I just wish I had the resources to be able to find such place. Some people in life have deceived me, as happens to everybody. Life lessons, I guess. However, some people are real liars it's unbelievable. I am not sure if I want to continue on in a world where I am not well-equipped to be able to handle such people. And with that, why would I need to always prepare and prepare, when eventually the realization has to come that people who abuse are the ones who are needed to be limited on their abusive advances?

Mixed topics, I know. The scars which are the cause of other people are still scorching and cause the needless and undeserved suffering
I really wish something could be done to stop this. I intend on doing so by inspiring with my ideas

That's all I had to share

[ShadowGX]

There's definitely nothing wrong with expressing yourself on a forum that is designed specifically for that purpose as this one is. By "beyond the forums" do you mean IRL? Seems like that's what you're getting at, but I don't like to assume. I wish I could express myself properly IRL, but it's much harder for me to make words with my voice than text where I have plenty of time to process thoughts and feelings.

A lot of what you write resonates with me personally, so even if I don't have much to say in response to you it's been interesting reading what you write and seeing what others reply.

Yes, I mean IRL