Hello everyone.

I am a seventeen years old with impaired ability to socially interact. It all started with my parents.

My parents have mental health issues. My mother was born to my grandmother when my grandmother was 11. (I don't even know how that is possible.) My father was born to a poor family; he therefore himself was a subject to bad parenting. So, yes, so much for genetic makeup. (About my high functionality later.) They were quite crazy even before I was born. Mother had issues with her mother -- she still yells about it to us, eighteen years after she left her maternal home -- and I don't know about my father. My father seems a quite cold person, damaged perhaps, who cares for nothing except money.

Enough of the genetic makeup. I was thrown on the wall by my father when I was around three months old, because he wanted to take revenge of my mother who was fighting/arguing with him at that time. So much for infanticide. It affected my neural functioning and I have a lot of neural disorders now, peripheral neuropathy and schizophrenia to name a few. I am highly functional because of my intelligence (I believe myself to be quite intelligence, but not genius, thus I may not be delusional.)
So here goes physical injury. After that, things went even worse.

My dad used to and still wants to pick me up and drop me at school every day of the week every year. I am seventeen and just received my high school diploma (will turn 18 this year.) So as my friends are enjoying life on two wheelers and even in four wheelers, I am left home sick. I mean, they have it all, smartphones, girlfriends, friends, their usual teenage drama and a quite normal life, motorbikes and sunglasses and all that stuff. Do you think I do not yearn for this all? I mean, I am confined to a cage (my home) where I have to live one odd sibling (I do not blame her for her behavior, she's nine) and two demented parents excluded from the rest of the world.

My parents don't allow me to call my relatives, go outside, make friends, use the internet freely, talk to people, buy video games or have my own motorbike. Or choose my own career. Now you can imagine how poor my social skills are. Girls laugh at me and boys victimize me. Everywhere and everytime it's the same. But I cannot do anything, despite I being moderately bright, people think I am retarded wherever I go. They gawk at me. And my parents expect me to be a class one officer. Talk about realism.

I fall in love too, I want to have fun too, I want to go on a long drive with rider's jacket and sunglasses on, I want to go on a restaurant with friends too, I want to drink too. But I cannot. Due to some events in my life I am left with a pretty weird personality and some complexes (which I do not know of.) I am more interested in boys than in girls. But still, it doesn't make me a lesser human being.

What should I do? I don't know , my doctors are quiet.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Chemist: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

I'm sorry you in this quandary. I myself am an old man now. But I can still recall (if somewhat dimly) what it was like to be your age & to want to do all of the things other young people my age were doing. Unfortunately I don't know as I have a lot to offer in the way of suggestions. In my case, my own "liberation", so to speak, came when I was able to move into a dormitory on the campus of the college I was attending. (Prior to that, I had commuted from my parents' home.)

From what you wrote it sounds to me as though, so long as you live in your parents' home, circumstances may not be likely to change for you. And in that case, getting out on your own, either as a result of going to college or getting a job, may be your best means of freeing yourself from your current situation.

You mentioned social skills are a problem for you. One of the forums, here on PC, that may be of interest would be the social anxiety forum. Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/soci...ective-mutism/

And then here are links to some articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject of social anxiety. Perhaps some of the information in them can be of some help:

https://psychcentral.com/disorders/a...iety-overview/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/fearl...it-be-treated/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/nlp/2...ocial-anxiety/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/7-ways...ocial-anxiety/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/9-ways-...ere-right-now/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/15-smal...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/blog/podcas...-controls-you/

My best wishes to you...

Originally Posted by Skeezyks

Hello Chemist: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

I'm sorry you in this quandary. I myself am an old man now. But I can still recall (if somewhat dimly) what it was like to be your age & to want to do all of the things other young people my age were doing. Unfortunately I don't know as I have a lot to offer in the way of suggestions. In my case, my own "liberation", so to speak, came when I was able to move into a dormitory on the campus of the college I was attending. (Prior to that, I had commuted from my parents' home.)

From what you wrote it sounds to me as though, so long as you live in your parents' home, circumstances may not be likely to change for you. And in that case, getting out on your own, either as a result of going to college or getting a job, may be your best means of freeing yourself from your current situation.

You mentioned social skills are a problem for you. One of the forums, here on PC, that may be of interest would be the social anxiety forum. Here's a link:

And then here are links to some articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject of social anxiety. Perhaps some of the information in them can be of some help:

[Links removed due to privilege issues]
My best wishes to you...

Thank you so much for answering my thread! *Hugs*

Not to sadden you, dear sir, but I don't think I can be normal now. The onset of my symptoms is from childhood.

I have yet to read the articles you gave link to, but since the last two years people are calling me a freak, weirdo, retard, and what-not.


I may do something stupid and embarrass people associated with me. I have done it a lot of times since childhood; mostly because I don't know how to behave in public. What do you think can be done?

God bless you.

It's really hard to live when you're living with people who don't know how to parent. I mean, I thought I am a genius and yet I cannot even comb my hair. I thought I had talent in psychology but I couldn't talk to people. All this because my parents chose to raise me the way they did. I may be suffered from autism and this is absolutely painful PHYSICALLY. Because I am utterly exhausted by my daydreaming (which kicks in after I am stressed out.)

Seriously, who thought it'd be a great idea to not let your children go outside, learn a bicycle, then eventually ride a gear motorbike and live independently, get girlfriends and style their hair? For how long will they keep me as an infant who cannot do anything?

I don't know, I wanted to own a royal enfield but I am still like I am four to five years old mentally. They expect me to be a class one officer, how ridiculous I believe. I mean, I weigh around 100kg, am psychotic/neurotic, have no friends, no connections, and they still expect me to "do something in life" and "create history."

I mean, I don't think I can be normal now... Can I?

My peers are like "Oh, he's a retard! We can extract money from him." That hurts me because I know I am autistic and not a retard. Nothing can be done. It's not painful because I am emotionally numb. Brain damage? Perhaps.