[lilacsnow]

I'm not sure of the reasons why this is happening to me. I have tried to understand but I think there's a lot I don't know and I may have misinterpreted things.
Lately things have been falling apart and I don't know where to turn to. Ive been followed and so many things have indicated that I'm not that safe and I'm concerned that something may happen.
I don't know which section this is best to post under. I'm also aware that someone claiming to be a professional may possibly try to close this account. I haven't done anything wrong so far as I know other than try to work out why I've needed some help with mental health.
If it turns out that this account does get closed - then I guess all I can say is that someone somewhere knows the truth and could help me but it looks like perhaps they are choosing not to at the moment and I just hope that God intervenes somehow.

Ive become aware that misinformation could be being said about me and I don't know why I've been targeted in this way.

[mote.of.soul]

Hi lilacsnow. No, you're posting in the right forum, that's fine,

Now, as a person who deals with mental health probs on a daily basis, I want to tell you - do everything in your power to not grasp onto those thoughts. Do everything in your power to just let go and just not worry about 'what you think' might be happening and 'what you think' is the case concering other people. Because if you can influence that control of your own mind, I guarantee you - you'll be happier and just free of all the things worrying you. Let go, let go, don't worry, feel happy. Forget your bf - and that will give you a level of peace.

Go onto the internet and look into ways of letting go. Our minds are our own worst enemies in a lot of respects friend. It's illusions.

[sarahsweets]

When you say you were worried about somebody closing your account that is professional do you mean somebody that is a member here? Or do you mean somebody outside of the forums? I guess I'm just looking for clarification because I'm confused.

Originally Posted by lilacsnow

I'm not sure of the reasons why this is happening to me. I have tried to understand but I think there's a lot I don't know and I may have misinterpreted things.
Lately things have been falling apart and I don't know where to turn to. Ive been followed and so many things have indicated that I'm not that safe and I'm concerned that something may happen.
I don't know which section this is best to post under. I'm also aware that someone claiming to be a professional may possibly try to close this account. I haven't done anything wrong so far as I know other than try to work out why I've needed some help with mental health.
If it turns out that this account does get closed - then I guess all I can say is that someone somewhere knows the truth and could help me but it looks like perhaps they are choosing not to at the moment and I just hope that God intervenes somehow.

Ive become aware that misinformation could be being said about me and I don't know why I've been targeted in this way.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, lilacsnow Please don't give up. I know it's hard to deal with these thoughts, but please remember that just because you think something is true it doesn't mean it is. I'd suggest to talk to your doctor about this and see how it goes from there. Try to seek professional help if you can. I feel like that may really help you. You deserve to get help and to feel better. Try to fight these thoughts as much as you can. You deserve to live a good life just like everyone else does. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. You deserve it. Please don't give up. Don't worry, you're safe here. Nobody is going to close your account unless you want to. Like you've said, you're not doing anything wrong. You're just asking for help, and that's great! It means that you do want to get better. Take all the time you need. Take it one step at the time. Take baby steps. I'm sure you'll be able to get through this. You're a strong, wonderful person. Try to hang on. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Please don't give up. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, lilacsnow. Don't worry. Remember that you're safe here. You're a strong, wonderful person. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this

[lilacsnow]

Thanks very much for your replies.

Sarahsweets....I meant from outside the forum when I posted that contacting someone here. I think someone may try to and perhaps already has been trying to discredit me or suggest this is symptomatic of mental illness which is the predicament I'm in

[divine1966]

If you feel that someone recognized you on here from irl I suggest you ask moderators if you can change your screen name or close your account and open under a new name.